take my hand //billie eilish//

chapter 23•

billie pov:

its been a week and ive been blowing up rivers phone, i mean yeah ive been distant to everyone because i cant speak to river of course im going to be upset

i was laying in my bed and ashley climbs ontop of me to my surprise she kissed me first i normally kiss her first but okay?

as the kiss gets more passionate my phone dings but i ignore it and throw it on the floor as things get more intense...

river pov:

i sent her a text 'i miss you' i was kinda feeling bold but she hasnt answered me as fast as she normally does so i delete it and carry on watching gossip girl 

normally billie would be offering me to go into the studio with her and finneas, or help her review some lyrics so im really bored

like really bored to where i could literally perish, i begin humming one of the tunes to billies unreleased song until my phone pings

'heyy ri ive missed you im actually coming home today was wondering if youd want to come for some drinks' wait daisy and noah are coming back a week early? and noah wants to drink?

im scared right now. 'yeah sure' i reply and get up to get myself changed and head to the bar he told us to meet at

~time skip~

me and noah are talking about how i should definitely meet his parents and his sister, as we drink more i can tell hes holding back something "what are you keeping from me" i giggle

"i want to propose to her, but she always said she doesnt want to get married" he says genuinely sad and i felt kinda bad for him "but maybe thats different now? things have changed shes literally having a child with you" i laugh as i take a long drink washing all my worries down the drain

"i think you should give it a shot, take her somewhere away like her dream holiday make it super romantic and do things you know she likes and boom ask the question get on your knee for her, because i know i would" i giggle winking at him

"if you asked her she would probably say yes to you" he laughs

around 3 hours passed and we are so drunk and are stumbling out the bar "we didnt think about how we are getting home" he laughs

"ill call billie she will be awake right now" its 3:15am daisy is going to murder us both but i call her and ask her to come pick us up and she agrees right away

"shes coming" i slur as we start acting like total idiots until i see her car pull up i jump in the front seat and noah lays in the back "thanks" i say not realising we havent spoken in a week

i couldnt feel the awkwardness like billie could because im drunk, but i could see on billies face she was kind of scared?

as we pull up to our apartment "thanks bills" noah says rubbing her shoulder but as i go to leave "come back to mine, ashleys not here she left me" uhm?

"sure" i say pulling my leg back into the car closing the door, i can feel the air loosen a bit and i lay my head on her lap "im sorry about ashley" she looks at me with love filling her eyes as she lays her free hand on my side as i lay

"no really i am, that wasnt sarcasm" i say seriously "thanks ri" she shrugged i lay my hand on her thigh and rub gently

as i see her face lighten up as we reach her house, she comes round my side and piggy backs me inside and lays me on the sofa

"ill be upstairs if you need me" i rag her arm "stay?" i question, she immediately laid on the sofa and put her arms as i lay into them facing into her chest i could feel her arms get loose and her heart beat go slow, shes asleep

i wonder how long her heart has felt this heavy for? maybe i shouldnt of ghosted her for a week

OOOP ASHLEY IS GONE? DOES THAT MEAN RILLIE...