take my hand //billie eilish//

chapter 38•

river pov:

i never knew bed rotting could be this fun until now, i told daisy and noah what happened and they completely had my back

i messaged olivia and told her im going to be working at home until next term which is june and she completely understood too, i didnt tell her what really happened i just said we broke up, the university understood that my nephew was going to be born and theyd need my support, just as long as i did my work

i decided to work on my self over the past two days, today is daisies due date and i think shes scared

i decided to also finish up the book i mean of course the ending wasnt how i planned but, everything changes?

i finish up my story

'we had good moments, bad moments but maybe this moment wasnt something we couldve got over, maybe in another life my love'

ive also been working on the cover of the book and the summary

i mean this is never how i wanted to end the book but making a happy ending wouldn't feel right if it never actually ended happily? right?

after finishing the book i decided to post a pic on my story

'i never wanted to write this but unfortunately me and billie have came to an end, please dont give hate but please give us both time to process and accept this difficult time i love everyone and thank you for the support i have received over the years and ill forever love billie for everything she did for me'

i post it and decide to close my laptop and join daisy in the living room

"hey" she smiles "when is he going to come out of you" i whine

"hopefully soon" she sighed "do you want anything?" "ice cream would be good?" i nodded and got us three bowls as noah also joined up after he finished packing up the baby bag

'river please'
'im sorry'
'i cant do this without you'
'i made a mistake but it wont happen again'

my phone blowing up i switched it off, taking a deep breath and decided to join my family with ice cream

until daisy stood up to use the restroom

'drop' 'drop' her water broke

"shit" noah says grabbing the baby bag

i place the bowls on the coffee table and take daisies hand "you load the car ill walk her" he nods slamming the door open and basically jumping down the steps

"take it slow okay?" i say as we make our way to the steps she nods and i could tell the nerves where kicking in

as we got to the bottom of the steps she stumbled "breath okay" i sit her in the back seat and get in with her

"drive" i say to noah

~time skip~

"your doing amazing" i say as i held her hand sat next to her as noah sat on the other side holding her hand

until the cries filled the room and noahs face lit up like the sun beaming through your curtains on a morning

the doctors handed him to daisy and noah rested his head on her shoulder "hes beautiful" i say "ill give use some time"

i walk out of the room and message my mom telling her hes been born, waiting for a response i hear a familiar voice, a voice i didnt want to hear right now

"what are you doing here" i say meeting her half way down the hall way

"i saw the paparazzi photos that you were here so i guessed marlow was born" she smiled lightly "you dont just get to show up here and think i've forgotten what you did because hes born?"

her smile faded and she nodded "im sorry, i really am"

"ill wait for you, ill be here with flowers at the door the moment you arrive at my step" the memory hit me like a brick

seeing her i knew i couldnt stay mad, but i had to, if she knew she could win me over this easily she would keep doing it

"im sorry billie but im going to need more than two days to decide what i want, i release my book tomorrow and the baby is here, and i need to finish university and by then you might have found someone else"

"ill wait for you" she says "thats what you said before i left, how can i know your telling the truth" i say taking a seat as she hovered over me

she bent down to my level and tried to take my hand

"dont please dont, your trying to force your hand in mine when we both know it doesnt fit anymore, at least not yet" im giving in

come on river be stronger than this

"i made a stupid mistake, but i missed you and the girl saw me in the mall buying you flowers, and offered to help and then she asked to come back to mine and i said yes"

"and what billie, she came into your room took her shirt off for no reason?"

"she kissed me and i froze but i closed my eyes and i felt like it was you i stupidly kissed her back but i couldnt be more sorry than i am"

i shake my head, how do i know this is true?

"i need space billie wether you kissed her or not, she was half naked in your bed and you didnt stop that its still wrong"

she nodded "im going to head back in there and ill tell daisy you swung by but please, dont call me, dont text me, dont even look at anything to do with me because i dont think im the one for you i love you and i always will but i need time for my self and for them in there so i can give my everything for them"

she placed the flowers on the chair along with the teddy bear she had bought months ago and walked away without saying a word

god my heart is aching right now, but they need me

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DO YOU THINK RIVER WILL FORGIVE HER?

I MEAN WHEN DOES SHE NOT...