take my hand //billie eilish//

chapter 18•

river pov:

im pretty drunk, i may have took to many drinks from claudia after we had listened to the album and now its just a huge party

im stood by my self in the kitchen pouring my self a drink when i see ashley is sat on billies lap and jealousy over took me

i walk over to them and place my hand on billies shoulder and smile "hey river" billie never drinks so shes sober "hey" i smile as i try to step forward i trip

and billie catches me as ashley just looks at us two giggling "your really drunk riv" i laugh "no ill be fine im going to head home soon" her smile faded?

"well how about for now you lay down and stop drinking" she says as she takes my cup from me and placing it down "ill be back babe" she says leaning to kiss ashley

yuck.

"you want to lay in my room?" "sure" she places her hand on my back and the goosebumps tickled my skin god i havent felt her touch in forever

as we walk in it looks the same apart from its cleaner and the beds different, but everything of mine was missing "lay down and ill come check on you" as i lay down i drag her top with me and she lands facing me with her hands above my head keeping her up

this isnt right but since i laid my eyes on her tonight ive needed this

i pull down her chain and kiss her, to my surprise she kissed me back this is so wrong but so right at the same time

as the kiss deepens the door clicks and i push billie back and look at the door to see claudia stood there

she steps in and closes the door behind her "billie what the fuck" she says "your girlfriend is downstairs and your up here kissing river?" ive never seen claudia this mad before "im glad use are reconnecting but billie if you want river you have to break up with ashley"

billie walks out without saying anything and i just lay there will my dress strap half way down my arm, the room spinning "river" she giggles
"i knew this would happen and thank the lord because we really dont like ashley" wait but.

"but your mad?" "yes because billie shouldn't of cheated but im hoping now your back into the picture she might break it off with ashley"

"how long have her and ashley been together" river dont ask stupid questions "8 months" ouch "maybe i should go tell ashley" i say sitting up "no, go downstairs and act like nothing happened if billie really wants you back she will tell her herself"

i walk downstairs with claudia and i get a new drink, once i drink i cant stop

ashley looks at me and back at billie and slaps her, uhm what.

billie looks at me and rolls her eyes, i look at my shoulder and shit i didnt pull my strap up

billie pov:

shit.

i chase ashley grabbing her hand, "billie get off me, dont drown me with your excuses its all you ever do" "i kissed her" i spit i couldnt lie to her "what"

"i kissed river upstairs, im sorry but when i saw her tonight it brought back memories and she was the first girl i ever loved but it wont ever happen again i promise it, we will remain friends and only friends"

ashley looked at me with such forgiveness in her eyes? "thank you, for telling me the truth"

she kissed me and i kissed her back but it wasnt like the kiss me and river just shared

i walk back in holding hands with ashley and river looks at us and i see her scoff

why is this so difficult, i wouldve chose river in a heartbeat?

as i sit with ashley playing with her hair, and talking to her friends river comes over "did you tell her" she whispers in my ear "i did" i mouth back and i see her face change

she smirks before planting a kiss on my neck and walking away, "who was that babe" "just my mom" i lie

i watch her dance with claudia and oh the way her body moves.

billie a fuck boy?

does she continue to screw around with river but keep ashley in the picture

or does billie remove ashley?