take my hand //billie eilish//

chapter 6•

river pov:

i left billies room last night after arguing with her through the bathroom door and woke up on the sofa?

~last night~

river pov:

"billie stop locking doors" i say jumping of her bed walking towards the bathroom "why should i" she says sarcastically knowing it would hit a nerve "billie you know i didnt mean it" "sure seems that way when your running to finneas to tell him, what does he know that your so ashamed to tell me? im your best fucking friend river" shes right but would things change if i told her i was gay

"you dont understand" "how can i understand if you dont fucking tell me" she yells "honestly if i could id just erase everything" that tugged on my heart, bitch

"if thats how you really feel then why dont i just leave and you stay out my life" i shouldnt respond to her stupid comments because i know billie better than her self she doesnt mean it

"do it then we are better of without each other anyway" "oh really?" i ask "fuck off river" she screams i could tell shes freaking out, but anger is the only thing my brain is processing

"i shouldve never came here i shouldve stayed at home alone not like its any different from here with you!" i yell out slamming her bedroom door after me, why the fuck did i say that

~present day~

i hear billie coming down the stairs so i get my shoes, putting them on looking at her before i walk out the door

i get an uber home and as soon as I walk in i break down

sitting down infront of the door crying into my knees, what have i done? have i lost it all over a kiss and a few stupid words

billie pov:

i get my water and go to finneas's room "hows the hand" he asks "what do you know about river that i dont" he looks at me

"that isnt for me to tell billie" "finneas shes gone home tell me so i can go get her back i love her" the guilt washes over his face i can read him like a book

"billie she will tell you when shes ready"

i can feel my self start to freak out

i pull out my phone and send her a text

"river please answer me im sorry can we talk?"
*read*

shes seen it already

"whats there to talk about you dont want me there with you so leave me alone billie"

"i will come over to your house river i mean it"

finneas takes my phone, i look at him. Seriously. 

"you cant pressure her bills, you have to give it time forget about the kiss and act like nothing happened"

claudia looks at me and gives me a nod, i always look at clauds when finneas says something serious just to make sure she agrees or disagrees and this time ill take her nod as a disagree

"fine ill just go to her house" when claudia gave me a nod i knew she wanted me to go get river

i throw on some old sneakers and run to my
car and drive as fast as i can to her house

i get to the front door wiping the sweat from my palms as i walk in shes sat at the island on her phone, i walk up to her spin her chair towards me

she looks away but i lift her chin up to make her look at me

"can we talk" i say "you ignored my message about coming over so i decided to just do it"

her cheeks turn red but i ignore it not knowing what to feel

"look, last night was so stupid riv if i could change it i would i didnt mean to say that id erase everything because i dont know who id be without you by my side"

"im sorry for kissing you billie" is all she says

"lets not worry about that please just come back to mine i dont want you here alone" i say removing her phone from her hand "i dont know bills i feel awkward now, i told finneas which was wrong i shouldve handled it with you its just" she stops speaking?

"just what riv?"

"its okay dont worry about it" she smiles but i could tell it wasnt genuine "ill go get your stuff for you"

"thank you"

YAY they made upppppp, but billies releasing her song soon... will the fame change her 🤷🏽‍♀️