billie pov:
i fell asleep on rivers floor but got woken up to the sound of the door opening and i think she did to because we both sit up and look at eachother
"river" we hear a female voice say
"shit its my mom" she says suggesting for my hoodie i smile and pull it off giving her it
as we leave her room we hear ashley pulling her suitcase through the living room
we walk downstairs and she takes my hand and squeezes it "river baby" her mom says going in for a hug but river steps back
"hi" she says nervously
i lean back to her ear "dont be nervous riv this isnt about her its about you" she nods and walks past her "im not staying here im staying with billie" her mood completely flips huh?
ashley looks over to me "wow billie youve gotten so big" she smiles, i smile back i mean i have to, i have to be polite
"you can stay in dads room, or the guest room i guess" river says letting go of my hand to put on her shoes
"river im sorry but things were difficult the older you got"
"save the shit for fuck sakes i dont care about you or your little family i know you secretly dont care about dad why should you, you left without even saying goodbye" my eyes shoot on her mom
river pov:
i pause throwing my shoe on the floor, feeling the anger pump through my veins
"it wasnt like that river me and your father werent going to keep fighting for something we didnt want anymore"
"thats where your wrong! he wanted you he wanted you more than anyone he never moved on, your wedding photo is still on his night stand for gods sake you just didnt want to deal with this life and your ran off and started a new one and congratufuckinglations on your new family by the way, i hope you dont leave them to struggle to"
"river you dont get to speak to me like" i cut her off "and you dont get to show up here because dad died and you want to act like you care about me and especially about him" i scream
my mom jumps and billie grabs her car keys and my shoes, throwing me over her shoulder jeez shes strong (which is kinda attractive)and opens the door "choose what bedroom you stay in i dont care ill see you at the funeral then you can go back home to your perfect little family on the other side of the fucking world" billie closes the door and i feel a wave of anger rush over me
"that isnt what i meant by dont be nervous"
billie says opening the door for me, i sit in her car and just cry she gets in the drivers seat and looks at me
"i cried every night for a year thinking it was my fault" i lean forward "why would it ever be your fault" "because my anger got worse and i felt like it changed the whole family, my dad started working extra coming home late and my mom started getting more distant, then theyd argue about school because i wasnt behaving"
"and thats your fault how" she questions, to be honest ive never seen billie be so mature before until these past two days "lets get you to my house get you a shower and get to bed its a long week"
she starts the car and she starts conversation "so uhm finneas asked me to sing his song for him ocean eyes and i dont know if to do it or not" i shoot my head at her "yes do it your voice is angelic billie its a gift" "but he wants to release it and i dont know"
"than that means the world gets to see your talent have you asked zoe about this idea" zoe is our bestfriend mainly billies as i did go to australia for two months for my dads job so they grew closer and we lost contact but me and billie stayed strong she sent me a letter everyday with a little present in eachtime
"she agrees that i should do it, maybe once everything settles ill give it a try only because you want me to though" me? just me?
yes river you blind bat because of you TAKE THE HINT BITCH
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take my hand //billie eilish//
Fanfiction"take my hand, look at me and just breath" "billie i cant it hurts my chest is hurting"
