take my hand //billie eilish//

chapter 40•

river pov:

its been 4 months since me and billie spoke or even seen each other and my dads grave, its killing me inside

but i know if we had contact i would take her back without actually healing my self and i would hurt us both

people need time to heal and that's exactly what i need.

my book has been doing amazing, my name is everywhere and i did this all by my self, without dating a huge popstar, without being seen with her

paparazzi swarm me for my own fame which is my book.

im finally getting the credit i deserve, "you deserve more credit" i actually miss university, i cant wait to go back

olivia has been texting me everyday asking me how i am and how much she misses me, i know i have daisy and noah they took me in like i was their own and i am so thankful for them

claudia still speaks to me, i think id be lost of i lost her and finneas over this situation we are all stuck in right now.

claudia told me billie hasnt been out her room much and shes struggling and id love to check on her i want to badly but i think it would hurt us more

marlow is great, hes got his mommy's beautiful looks which noah always says "how could i ever complain when he looks just like his mommy"

they are perfect, everything about this family is amazing, hes growing so much and im happy to be apart of it, i go back to university tomorrow

they offered me to write a new book, well a collection and i was thinking that this is a great opportunity, book one was with her, book two is without but book three? what could that be...

lost in thought i heard marlow cry, i get up and head to the nursery, picking him up he smiles at me, "arent you just so cute" i say lightly cupping his cheeks

as i place marlow on the floor, i sit him up and hold his back, we have been trying to teach him how to sit up, its been hard but hes finally getting there

noah and daisy went out for a break of course i pushed them out the door before they could even have a second thought

marlow starts to crawl and i video him sending it to the group chat, daisy, noah and their parents until

claudia calls?

"hey" i say almost immediately
"are you busy" she asked
"nope ive got marlow though"
"billies in the hospital" she spat

my heart sinking i picked up marlow, as i put claudia on speaker

"what why" panicking
"she was speeding and lost control ri" she said softly, i could hear the cracks in her voice as i heard finneas in the background

"im going there now" i end the call and head to the car

placing marlow in his seat and driving, fuck.

speeding but taking it slow as ive got little man with me, he starts to make baby noises and i smile as we pull up to the hospital

we head inside

"billie eilish?" "and who are you to the patient, just so i can log it" "girlf" oh. what do i say? ex? friend? "friend" i smile

"room 230" i nod and head down the cold corridor feeling shivers run through me as marlow tugged on my necklace

taking a deep breath before walking in, come on river youve got this, she needs you.

walking in, she looked pale, her eyes dulled not as blue as they usually were, she laid there looking weak, lifeless.

"hey" claudia says hugging my arm "this is not how i planned for use to meet him" i said trying to lighten the mood

claudia puts her arms out and he jumped to the opportunity, seeing claudia slip a smile as he held his arms out too

sitting on the chair next to billie, her eyes begun to open "hey" i say taking her hand in mine, feeling goosebumps run down my back

claudia stepped outside with marlow while finneas stayed with us, "what are you doing here" she says trying to sit up

"lay" i demanded she sighed and laid down, lightly squeezing my hand, "ill give use two some time" finneas says nodding at me

"billie.. speeding?" she looked at me "i needed a break, i was heading for the rocks until my foot locked on the pedal"

"your lucky your not dead billie" i say seriously "i know" she hung her head back in defeat

"how did you know" "claudia" "she told you, why" "because billie, i still care about you"

"i still love you" she said and i felt my heart skip a beat, hearing her telling me she loved me felt unreal.

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DOES THIS BRING THEM CLOSE?

PS. I HATE BEING BACK IN EDUCATION YUCK.