take my hand //billie eilish//

chapter 13•

billie pov:

"noah im worried about river" i know he doesnt care but i have to tell someone? "why she seems fine to me"

why is this so difficult? my heart is telling me river and my heads telling me noah "you dont know river like i do" i say smiling "i already said me or her and you know what looks better for your career" he raises his eyebrow

hes right. right?

"im just going to see fin" i say about to get up "dont be to long" he kisses me but i didnt get the same feeling i did when river kissed me, is this a sign?

as i walk into fins room i sigh "fin" he snaps his head so fast he may as well of broke his neck damn, "im worried about river but when i try to tell noah he says that it looks better for my career if i stay with him is that true?"

i see finneas expression change and he nudges past me

i follow him and hes heading to my room "get out noah and dont bother coming back" noah laughs "fin what are you doing" i say to him

"you dont get to tell billie whats better for her career youve known her two month and now you can remember how much you fumbled in a years time, get out"

"billie what did you say to him" his tone getting more aggressive "i" "i just asked him if what you said was true" he scoffs "your an idiot billie, if you be with river itll ruin everything music isnt for the gays"

before i know it finneas's fist collided with noahs jaw "i said get out and dont come back" finneas pulls his shirt and takes him to the door, slamming it in his face

"whyd you do that?" billie your 16 shut up you know nothing

"hes not right for you and i believe in rillie" "rillie?" i giggle "really?" he nods and hands me my phone "text her and tell her to come back its been two weeks i miss claudia but i know you miss river"

'river i dumped noah come over? :)' i sent that like i was ever actually with him? we just kissed and he came over, anyway

river pov:

me and claudia are in the car getting ice cream but my phone pings

i wont lie my phones been dry, ive been trying to speak to other girls but non of them compare to billie "you going to look who that was" she smiles

"its billie" but my brain didnt react the way it shouldve its been a month since she pushed me out and ive felt empty ever since

"what did she say" she pulls over after getting our ice cream "river i dumped noah, come over" claudia claps her hands in excitement like a child

she starts driving "where are we going claws" i giggle putting ice cream in every crevice of my mouth "billies"

after what felt like the longest drive ever, we finally pulled up in billies drive way "im scared" i look at claudia "i know its been a month but nothings changed noah was a jock god knows what he was putting into her little brain" she reassures me

we walk in and billie looks at me and takes me to her room

"im sorry" she spits, i freak out and start pushing her

"you pushed me away for a boy" my pushes get more aggressive each time while her face remains blank.

"i dumped him though?" "that doesnt matter billie you pushed me away out of everyone after everything" my eyes started to fill but no i wont cry over this situation because one day when she realises im gone for real she will beg for me back

"sit down" she says "look i didnt dump noah, he said that it would look better for my career if i stayed with him, and i believed it i believed alot of things he said but mainly i didnt want to ruin this for finneas"

as much as id love to give her advice i just let her carry on "so i asked finneas if what noah said was true and he ended up coming in and punching him basically breaking it off with noah for me"

"one thing" "anything"

"promise me youll never choose a boy over me again, if your heart is screaming my name that means im the option and until the day comes where your heart no longer beats for me thats when you get let me go"

"i promise, now take my hand" i place my hands in hers and i felt home again, we are now both 16 but does that mean we are ready?

i dont know honestly, im happy finneas punched noah i really am but i cant say that out loud

i made noah disappear, i dont like him and i need billie to be single again tbh...