take my hand //billie eilish//

chapter 8•

finneas pov:

i woke up to the sound of pots clashing in the kitchen and claudia was gone?

as i head downstairs i see billie and claudia making something, i think they were planning on baking each other with how much flour is in their hair

i sit on the top of the stairs and just admire the moment my girlfriend and my sister are having, billie has been struggling with her depression and now i cant get what river told me yesterday out of my head.

"we need flour for the muffins billie" claudia laughs, i mustve got lost in watching them because i feel a tap on my shoulder

"morning fin" i turn around and see river and she looks ill "morning sleepy how you feeling"
"heads hurting but im sure ill survive wheres billie?" i point

river giggles as they pull out the muffins "ill take one up to river" billie smiles trying to wipe the flour of her clothes "go" i say

river runs into billies room and i run to my room

river pov:

last night is a blur to me all i remember is billie telling me and then i didnt see her for the rest of the night?

~last night~

river pov:

as i look up and see its finneas my heart sank "your in a hurry arent you" he laughs, "yeah billie has gone" i say as i try to walk away

he steps infront of me "what do you mean gone?" "shes left and i dont know where, she told me and then we got into a fight"

"what did she tell you?" river dont, keep your mouth shut for once "shes been cutting again finneas, and i was to blind to see it shes been drawing again but this time wont show me im worried about her alot"

his face went blank like he had just seen a ghost "riv i promise we will help her, ill get her medication again, she told us she was getting bad but not this bad"

i nod and go follow her but by the time i got to the door she was gone "fuck" i sit down on the door step thinking about every possible place she'd run to if things got difficult

i look to my left and see half a bottle of rum, fuck it

before i know it i opened it and downed as much as i could before i almost threw up, and then it hit me the rocks.

we would always go to the rocks as a kid to talk or gossip about what we heard or just to even sit in silence

i didnt even bother to put shoes on and started walking feeling my self swaying side to side but i see a figure in the distance

and there she was walking with her airpods in and i tried to run and catch up to her but i trip "billie wait" i scream and she turns around

"river?" i see her mouth

"billie wait" i say picking my self up giggling im not an easy drunk im more of a silly drunk, unfortunately billie doesnt drink so shes kind off the mother when we have parties

"why are you here, without shoes on" she giggles phew, maybe shes blew of the steam?

"coming after you, im sorry" i always seem to say sorry but then i never change because how can i when i love her to deeply

"lets gets you home that leg looks bad" she gestures me to get on her back and as i do i place my head on her shoulder and drift off

~present day~

"river" i hear her say "im awake" i smile and as i try to stand i feel a huge shooting pain fly up my leg like a thousand needles

"take it easy" she giggles "what happened why is my leg bruised" she hands me the muffin which smells really good "do you not remember" she laughs

i love seeing her smile it brings me joy, and now my only goal and focus is to do it all the time and bring the billie i grew up with back

"no" i say looking confused "well you came after me and fell"

"BILLIE, RIVER, CLAUDIA" we hear

we look at each other "tell me later"

billie helps me of the bed and into finneas's room as claudia runs up the stairs covered in flour and ill guess egg?

"everything okay?" claudia asks wrapping her arms around his shoulders as hes sat not saying anything facing his laptop

"oh my god" she says "will someone say it" billie says "billie ocean eyes has 1.4 million streams" i shoot and look at her smiling

"what? your joking" she laughs "hes not bills i promise" "and its going up fast"

her phone starts going crazy "im gaining thousands" she looks overwhelmed "thousands of what?" i ask "followers"

this may be the best thing for billie or the worse.

"im so happy for you" we all say in sync and i give finneas a hug

"billie we have to make more music your a literal hit" hes says turning around, we all laugh and then he realises and giggles

is this good or bad? especially for billie and river, being famous is like an oxymoron....