take my hand //billie eilish//

chapter 12•

river pov:

its been almost a month its my birthday tomorrow but i told maggie and everyone im not feeling it so nothing special they all agreed

billie has speaking to noah a lot, yeah... i gotta act happy for her shes finding her self and maybe her and noah will work out, but i want her

"river noahs coming over if thats okay?" fuck my life "yes its your house" i laugh "im just going to go somewhere" billies face dropped, she knew i didnt like noah hes controlling and the way he speaks to her makes me angry like i could punch him

"ill see you later bills" she hugs me and i leave

billie lets me drive her car now so i stop paying for ubers so i drive to my house, my mom hasnt been here to sell it yet and we still havent packed my dads shit because billies been more interested in that doosh

i open the door and head upstairs, i sit on my fathers bed and just lay "god how i wish you were here i need you right now" i laugh

"i need your relationship advice, and not about boys like you always thought" i shake my head and turn over nodding off...

finneas pov:

me and claudia are in my room while i work on the background music of copycat fuck this job is hard especially on albums all the fans are dying for it

i hear billie and a deep voice speaking in her room so i go check and of course its noah, i dont even like this guy hes a doosh

"hey noah" i say being 'nice' "wassup man" i guess the fuck not "ill leave use to it" closing the door behind me, basically sprinting to my room

"clauds i dont like this noah guy" i say sitting on the bed next to her "why baby", "i guess its because im rooting for river and billie, but his vibes are of i dont know how to explain it like billie has been acting so off since she got with him, how did she even get with him?"

"calm down fin" she says rubbing her nails in my hair "i dont like him either but we have to let billie find her self, and trust me i know its not noah its river rillie for life" she giggles

"i like that rillie" we both laugh and i realise i havent heard from river in a while "have you heard from river?"

"not since she left she text me telling me she was leaving while 'doosh' was over" "thats what i called him too" i laugh

"ill go ask billie" "fin what did i say" she looks serious "i know clauds but shes not pushing river away because this football highschooler says so"

i flung open billies door "have you seen river?" i see noah roll his eyes "no she said she was leaving for a while, i dont know where she didnt say" she sits up but i see noah push her back down

"oh right okay" i close the door and take a minute to breath, hes controlling and the biggest doosh ever so how do i break this relationship?

i cant ask claudia because she thinks billie needs to figure this out on her own but i disagree hes going to hurt her it's obvious

river pov:

its 11pm and i totally didnt realise where i was until i saw the wedding photo on the nightstand

"fuck" i mumble to my self and get up i check my phone has i head downstairs and see 15 texts from finneas

'river where are you?'
'river answer me'
'dont make me come find your tiny ass'

they are basically all the same , i reply

'sorry gingerbread i fell asleep'
*read*

jeez calm down.

'where?'
'my house'

'gingerbread👨‍🦰 is calling'

"hey fin" i say still tired "river are you serious your house?" whats the big deal "yes finneas my house i slept in my dads room" "oh right well noah is gone if you want to come back over" i sigh billie hasnt called or texted all day

"i think ill crash here maybe for a few days?" "but ri its your birthday tomorrow and your going to spend it alone?" "no im just going to visit my dad and shit"

"why dont i send claudia over, she could spend the night with your or nights if shes down" "sure why not ask her first though dont tell her to i know you gingerbread" "i will dont worry ill ask her to text you" "thank you fin i love you" "i love you more ri make sure you and claudia make some food"

he ended the call and i remember we had some new pans and stuff in the spare room luckily

i think ill wait for billie to text me first to see if she really wants me around but since shes got with noah shes been distant, and i know its because he doesnt like me.

'claws😇 is calling'

"hey river, im bringing some clothes for you and me and ill stay with you until you want to come back deal?" i could tell she was smiling "thank you so much i appreciate you" "i appreciate you more"

billie pov:

i get woken up to the sound of my door opening, please be river "billie" claudia?

"im awake you can come in" i sit up "im just getting clothes for river, shes at home" what? at home "at home? why" she sits down and places her hand on my knee, like a mother or aunt would

"since youve been with noah youve been pushing her away billie, she needs you right now and i think she'll need you forever dont let noah tell you who you can be friends with please"

i just nod not knowing what to say

i watch her as she takes some of rivers clothes and i see she has a bag "are you staying with her?" she nods "please stay with her clauds"

"she needs you not me"

she walks out and i throw my phone

what do i do? its noah or river

noah or river?
what has noah been saying to her for her to even question that?
how yall finding it?