I am a walking disaster.. not just figuratively either..
I've seen destruction and carnage over and over.
I even destroy myself.. all of the time..
Replaying the same harmful moments again and again
I hurt myself and everyone else around me..
They say it's my surroundings or the people in my life..
'Once you break away things will get better.. just wait.'
But these questions start racing around my mind:
What if the problem isn't where I am, but who I am?
And by leaving, I'm just shifting it onto other people?
I know that I am a burden most of the time..
I don't wanna be a burden.. I try not to be a burden,
But no matter what I do, or try to do.. I'm a burden.
I came close to attempting suicide when I was 16..
I thought that once I was away from that house,
Those thoughts would stop.. for a while they did..
But slowly, over time, they started creeping back in.
I hate that I'm in this fucked up mental cycle..
I just want to be happy, but I feel so empty, it hurts..
I want to be whole and I want to be happy.
I don't want to feel like a burden anymore..
YOU ARE READING
The Hidden Darkness
PoetryI honestly don't know what to put here.. I decided to write a book, and so I wrote these poems. I know that they aren't very good, but at least I tried.. right?? 😅😅😅
