The Hidden Darkness

Colors of Love

I never realized how dull and gray my world was.
I felt like all my life, I was living in a gloomy haze..
I was the place where vibrant colors fade and die.

~until i met you~

Thanks to you, my world seemed new again..
Colors were brighter, deeper.. just all around better..
I felt lighter.. like I knew for sure everything was okay.
I clung to that feeling.. as if it were my only life line..

...maybe i clung to it too tightly...
- or maybe i just got too comfortable -

You added someone to our relationship,
Before you even asked me how I felt about it..
And expected me to instantly feel the same way..

.. i don't even know if i see girls the way you see me ..

I wasn't prepared.. so it crushed me when I heard it..
You.. saying "I love you" to someone other than me..

.. i felt like you didn't want me anymore ..
- it's fine _ she left -

You assured me there wouldn't be another one,
But here we are again.. you found another.
You're calling her sweet pet names,
And you're telling her how much you want her..

~ how much you love her ~

And once more I feel like I'm not enough for you..
That you don't want me.. don't need me..
That you want to stop loving me altogether..

+ no matter how many times you tell me otherwise +

I lived my entire life feeling unloved and unwanted,
So sometimes I hope and pray that she leaves too..
Most of the time I hope you don't bring her up..
I haven't talked to her at all.. not even to say 'hello'

/\ i hope that she lets go /\