Geekular COMPLETED

Chapter 39

We head to Nolan's house, picking up Nathan and Neil. Nolan wasn't kidding when he said that he was going to park far away and wait for them to sneak out. As we wait for them, Nolan and I played some car games.

"What is taking them so long?" Maddie complains in the back seat.

"I don't know, but I feel ya. My brother is dumb to this kind of stuff." Nolan agrees, pressing on my thumb as he counts down to three. "Hah. I win!"

"Screw you." Pushing his hand away, I slouch in the chair, folding my arms as I pout.

"Aw, you're so cute." Nolan pinches my cheek, cooing like a baby. "Pouting like a little baby."

"Nolan, stop." Smacking away his hand, but he wouldn't budge. Nathan and Neil walks out of the gate, dressed in dark colors and a beanie. We watch them search the surrounding, trying to locate Nolan's truck.

"Oh brother." Nolan takes out his phone, dialing his brother cell phone. I watch between Nolan and a far away Nathan. "Nathan." I look out the window, seeing Nate with his phone on his ear, still searching for the car. "Turn to your left. No. The other way." Giggling, I see Nate turning to his right when Nolan said left. "Yeah, that's me. Hurry up." Nolan ends the call, placing his phone in the cup holder. Once Nathan and Neil steps in the car, the car turns on and starts moving.

"So .. Noel .. You and Scott, huh?" I look back, seeing Nathan wiggling his eyebrows at us. Nolan looks through the rearview mirror, seeing his brother as well.

"Nathan, shut up."

"So .. What were two up to for couple of days?" Nate stares at me as I still look back. "I wanna know."

"We-"

"None of your business." Nolan cuts me off, pressing a hand on my thigh. "Scott, can you see if my headphone is under your chair?" I look at the side of his face, giving him a 'are-you-serious' look. He doesn't notice my stare, that I didn't do what he asked me to. Once we reach the traffic light, Nolan finally notice. "What?"

Shaking my head, I oblige to his other question. "Why were you staring at me like that?" He ask as I search the bottom of the seat.

"Because .. You're a messy pig." I grab onto the headphones, pulling it out from underneath. A foil flies out underneath as well, landing on my feet. I look down at it, seeing what it is.

"Scott.." I quickly sit up, realizing what that foil was. Passing him the headphone without looking at him, I, then, look out the window. The foil that's lingering on my foot happens to be a ripped condom wrapper. I know it's dumb to feel upsetting about this because it could be from long time ago, but the blow to my stomach and the pounding on my chest is all signs to hurt and somewhat anger.

"Nathan, can you put this on Neil? Let him listen to music .. Clean music." I hear Nate laughs.

"Alright alright." Nate says. Seconds later, Nolan starts to explain to Nathan on why he left, starting from the time he opened the door to his unknown step-brother. I look quickly behind, seeing if Maddie is listening, but she appears to be asleep, so hopefully she doesn't hear any of this. I don't know if Nolan wants her to know, but he didn't check if she's listening. I still stare out the window as we drive to Paul's, trying to calm my anger and subside the hurt feelings, telling myself that it was long time ago and that he likes you and that everything will be just fine. I zoned for a bit as I try to calm myself down. Some thoughts resurface when I felt those emotions as I found the condom wrapper; thoughts about me and Nolan and if I want to be with him. My feelings for him is just the same with my feelings for Xavier. I want to be selfish and have both of them, but I can't do that. One will have to lose while the other wins. That's normally what happens in a love triangle. I never felt more connected with Nolan. He brings out the old memories, the melancholy feelings, the butterflies to my stomach. Xavier, on the other-hand, brings out a new me, or maybe it's me but never really me .. If that makes sense ... He never saw me as the geek I was labeled as. He only saw me as his old self, too scared to help without being bullied again. That makes us connected, somehow. Being with Xavier was something I never thought I would have. Someone to hold, to kiss, to feel jitters when they're around you all the time, giving you care and love. I can honestly say that I love him. But what he did .. That could never be forgotten. If he didn't do what he did, I would still be with him. I wouldn't have any thoughts about Nolan or any connection with Nolan. But it happened. And maybe for a reason?