Geekular COMPLETED

Chapter 52

I feel a hand on my shoulder, shaking me softly and also sternly .. If that makes sense. Slowly opening my eyes, I see things blurry. Blinking a few times, I, now, see that I'm still in the library, still curled up on the floor. No music plays out my earphones and as I turn on my phone, it doesn't turn on.

"Hey, Scott?" Looking up to the whisper, I see Xavier kneeling on the carpeted floor. He's the one who woke me up. "You've been missing for awhile and your phone is not picking up."

"What time is it?" Yawning as I sit up.

"Little after one. It's the middle of the last period of the day."

What?

He shows my the time on his phone and it is little after one. I slept that long? Taking my phone off the ground, I unplug my earphones, stuffing them in my sweat pants' pocket, then next my phone.

"Are you okay? I've notice something between you and Nolan and I'm guessing it's taking a toll on you." Xavier as we walk out the library into the deserted hallway. I stop us in the middle, sighing frustratingly.

"It's complicated."

"You can always talk to me, you know?"

"I know. It's just ..." Huffing out a breath of, again, frustration. "Can we please just skip for the day? School is going to end soon anyways." Xavier thinks about it for a bit and finally agrees with a nod.

We get into his car and head out of the school area. We drive in a silent term, just listening to whatever song plays on the radio. Should I talk to him about this? Would it be awkward? It shouldn't be awkward talking to a friend about relationship problem .. but he's my ex, so it would be awkward? But I don't want to be that kind of friends who've dated. I want to talk to him about anything without feeling awkward about it. So fuck it.

"I think Nolan and I are getting separated. And more and more each day, I feel like we're going to break up."

"What happened?"

"I don't know. It all started the day he took us to our late valentine and one month-sary date. I told him that I love him and I thought we were okay. He didn't say it back, but what we did afterwards told me all .. Well I think it did .. And we didn't have sex, if that's what you're thinking." Looking at him, seeing his once wide eyes, now into a relax face. "Day after day started getting tension-y and awkward and now, I think that this could be the end. I haven't talk to him because I'm scared to think that whatever is in my head will come true and I'm not ready for that .. I love him, Xav." Towards the ending, my voice becomes soft and in low key. "I really do love him."

As I finish, nothing but the sound of the radio is what can be heard in the car. Taking subtle glance at Xavier, I see him just paying attention to the road, but if you look closely enough, without being noticeable, you could see him in a deep concentration. Maybe, he's thinking about what I've revealed to him and trying to find a solution or a though about it. In my head, I thought it would be awkward talking about my boyfriend in front of my ex-boyfriend, but after I let it out, I feel like I'm talking to a friend, a very close friend. But is it just me? Does he not find it awkward?

"Xavier?"

As we stop at a red light, Xavier exhales, turning on his chair, so he can look straight at me. "I don't know why he's being avoidance, but I know how much you mean to him. I've seen the way he looks at you, even when we were still together. He's head over heals for you and nothing can change that. Just talk to him. Because it looks like no one is doing the first move."

"You really think so?"

He smiles at me, giving me a small nod. "I may not know him longer than you, but I know that he loves you. Because he looks at you the same way I did." He, now, blush at the end, still having that small smile.