blaze of desire // billie eilish fanfiction

tweleve : rumors

billie

"cut!" my coworker yelled and marched to the actors that just weren't there yet in the scene, they couldn't get it right.

"everyone take five!" i yelled and approached them. "hey, what's going on?"

"they're fighting." raymond rolled his eyes. "that's what i get for trying to create stars."

"you two, get it together. we're still early in the filming, we can replace the both of you in a blink of an eye if you don't act professionally." i told them. "four minutes and you better get it right." raymond and i walked away together.

"tell me about that beautiful women you had here last week." he told me.

"first all.... why? and how did you know?" i frowned.

"get your mind of them." he replied. "everyone has been talking about it, although someone saw you guys running to the parking lot. did you scare her off eilish?"

"no!" i widened my eyes and laughed. "she's a friend from LA, she's visiting here cause well.. she's actually a new yorker. she's visiting her parents here. and before you start with me, yes she's a friend and we're just helpin each other out."

"mhmm, helping each other out?" he smirked at me.

"i like her and she likes me... i think but the both of us aren't ready for anything serious. me with work and she has a little girl to take care of and a messy divorce." i told him.

"damn, we should talk women over dinner when these two get it together." he widened his eyes.

"yeah, i'm down." i nodded.

"you know we can't afford reshooting and rehiring right?" he asked me.

"yeah, but they don't know that." i shrugged. "alright, break is over! everyone take your positions!"

thankfully we finished shooting on time and everyone went home happy. raymond really wanted to know more about my red head and i wanted to know about the blonde that was waiting for him in the trailer the other day. we went to a bar and bought each other drinks.

"how convenient of her to extend her stay here." he teased me.

"no, her daughter got sick. she wouldn't do that because of me." i shook my head.

"it might've been a factor." he told me.

"don't feed into my delusions." i shook my head.

"so you're not exclusive?"

"no." i shook my head. "but! that doesn't mean im open to someone else."

"so if you were horny and you needed someone you'd rather masturbate than go to a gay bar?" he asked.

"shut the fuck up." i rolled my eyes. "i meant i don't really do fuck buddies."

"yet you still made an exception for her." he replied. "don't get attached eilish, a women like that could break you like a twig."

"i'm trying." i laughed because i was failing... i think. "i don't even know what im doing cause... really i don't expect anything to come from this but at the same time i would be a very big shame, you know?"