blaze of desire // billie eilish fanfiction

fourty-seven : i'm yours

delilah

billie's words repeated like a broken radio in my head. an adaptation of my book. she wanted to work with me, write a script together. she said she'd give me some time to think about it. she didn't want to pressure me into it, i didn't want to get this opportunity because of my connections. i wanted to truly earn it.

mira would kill me if she found out i was keeping this from her. absolutely slaughter me with a knife.

tonight is her night though. i am being forced to walk with her on the carpet. she would tell the story differently, but i like it this way.

elle is doing my makeup and im doing my hair, for months ive been working on a dress for this specific occasion. it usually doesn't take me that long, but with the move and my book i couldn't devote that much time to just the dress.

billie on the other hand is getting glamed up by a whole team. she tried to get me to do the same, but she don't win that one. "billie let me look at you." i turned around to where she was sitting.

"no not yet!" she giggled. all i wanted to do was get up and kiss her, i cant resist her when she's all shy.

it didn't take long for me to finish my glam and so i went into the bathroom and changed into my dress. when i came out billie was waiting for me by the door, like a cute little puppy. "i wanted to kiss you before i had my lipstick applied, the makeup artist doesn't want me ruining it until the carpet." she took my hand. "but im not sure that's going to be possible." she pecked my lips.

"you're so pretty baby." i was careful not to smudge any of our makeup.

"no look at you." she softly replied, interlocking our fingers. "you're stunning, your dress is so stunning."

"i'm nervous." i admitted.

"i'll be right by your side the whole time, there's no reason to be nervous." she squeezed my hands. "i love you." she pecked my lips again.

"i love you too bil." i smiled.

we were told that we were pushing time and we had to get billie ready soon if we wanted to still have time for pictures together. so billie went back to her glam chair got dressed and we thankfully had the time to take our own pictures before we said goodbye to elle and thanked everybody else, leaving the hotel room and entering the car.

when we arrived to the theater location, there were too many people. a lot waiting by the arch to enter the red carpet, others waiting for the theater premiere, paparazzi were very loud, it was all so over stimulating. for a moment i forgot where i was at and i was just trying to register all of the crowd's actions, get myself used to the environment i was in and that's when she took my hand and squeezed it tightly, i squeezed back looked at her reassuring expressions. "it's alright, come on. the cast is taking a group photo." she told me.

the security let us pass the long line and billie joined her friends as i stood by and watched them get their pictures taken. "hey you." honey stood beside me. "you look so pretty, is this the dress you made!" she widened her eyes.

"yeah! and look at you, you look like a princess!" i took her hand and spun her around. "did you get your pictures with raymond?"

"no not yet." she shook her head. "we came a little late." she did an ops face.

"it's fine, we just made it here as well." i told her as the cast walked away to another spot in the carpet and billie motioned for me to join her. "don't you want to get your photos alone first?" i immediately held her hand for comfort, feeling my heart beating unusually fast.