blaze of desire // billie eilish fanfiction

fourty-five : fever dream

delilah

billie is always around in my world but recently i had felt like i haven't been in her's all that much. i know how much family means to her and i do want to get to know her mother more. maggie is such a sweet soul and i just feel like i haven't had enough of her.

i briefly mentioned this to billie while we were moving her boxes from the car to our room. i did not want it to sound like a big deal, it's not, but it sure is something i wished for.

just a few days later maggie called me herself to invite us over to her home, and it truly made me so proud to have a girlfriend that listens to me. she is so attentive and caring, it sends butterflies to my stomach.

it's a shame mom is back in new york, i've always wanted her to meet maggie. i also just know that dad and patrick will almost immediately vibe together. "mama when will mom come?" juniper asked another of her never ending questions. it doesn't matter if she knows the answer and ive replied to her before. if she asks something i better answer her or that question will be asked again and again until i do... answer it.

"three weeks baby."

"how many days?"

"twenty one."

"too much!"

"i know baby, but you can always call her. whenever you want." i replied.

"i mad at her." i could hear her shuffling, crossing her arms over her chest.

"because she left? it's okay, she's gonna come back faster than you know. i promise." i smiled at how cute she is. "and uncle nathan just finished your new room! we're going to move very soon. aren't you excited for that?"

"can unicorn come too?" she asked.

"yes! we're going to take everything." i giggled. "all your dresses and all your stuffies, everything! you don't have to worry about leaving things behind."

"okay!" she seemed pleased with my explanation. "billie?"

"yes juni?"

"is raymi gonna be there?" she asked.

"yeah! with honey too." billie nodded, looking at the road. "finneas and claudia, my mama and my dad."

"dia is your sissy?"

"yeah, just like you and riri. then finneas is my brother." she explained.

"oh!"

"oh!" billie and i both echoed at the same time, attempting to make an impression of juni just a second ago and then laughing it off.

"we're here!" billie announced to june when she started parking the car.

"i wanna see the doggie!" juniper squealed as i tired to get her out of her car seat. "billie!" she jumped up and took her hand, dragging her to the door.

"juniper, be polite. you have to say hello to everyone first, okay?" i told her while grabbing her bag from the car.

"come on mommy." billie looked back at me with the sweetest smile as she locked the car.

"right behind you." i smiled back, hurrying.

"we're here!" billie opened the door, walking into the house with juniper. billie hugged her brother and her dad, who were the closest people to the door. juniper immediately gave her the puppy dog eyes and held onto the end of her shirt for dear life before billie picked her up, hugged her to comfort a very shy juniper and introduced her.

"don't worry, she gonna get warmed up to you in no time." i said, walking up to them and greeting them with a fast hug.

"is that juniper i hear!" raymond's voice said from the other room before he appeared.