It's wrong, but she is mine! (Jayfeather X Female Reader)

Chapter 21

Y/W/N couldn't believe it. Firestar seemed to have figured out the relationship between her and Jayfeather. Her heart pounded and she became extremely anxious. What if I get Jayfeather into too much trouble? Could I get kicked from the clan?

She sighed shakily and looked up at the Thunderclan leader. "What do you mean, talk about me and Jayfeather?" She asked, praying she might be able to convince Firestar that they weren't doing anything.

"Well, I overheard that Jayfeather does love you. He was very worried in Windclan." Firestar explained, his voice calm and even. "Firstly, I want to know if you share that feeling about Jayfeather"

Y/W/N internally panicked. She debated on whether she should just tell the truth, or lie and say she doesn't feel that way at all. No, if I lie then I might make it worse

"....Yes, I do....." She said shyly, afraid of how Firestar might react. But she couldn't see his expression change at all, which made it all the more nerve wracking.

"I see. And you are aware that medicine cats aren't supposed to have mates?" He asked, still keeping the same tone of voice.

Y/W/N nodded "Yeah, Lionblaze and Hollyleaf explained that to me when we were apprentices" She said. The warrior was still fearful of what the Thunderclan leader would decide to do. Please don't kick me out...... She prayed

Firestar nodded as he seemed to think. "Very well. As I've told Jayfeather, just don't let it interrupt his or your duties. I would also like you to not let this be known to other clans. We don't need that kind of publicity right now"

Y/W/N nodded, her heart flaring with hope. Firestar soon left and the she-cat breathed a sigh of relief, happy to not have been kicked out.

Just as she settled back into the nest, she heard more pawsteps approaching. She became a little anxious of Firestar coming back when she watched Leafpool enter with Jayfeather right behind her.

Y/W/N barely got to purr and lift her head up before Jayfeather quickly darted to her, pushing his muzzle into her neck. "Thank Starclan you're alive!" He said, and Y/W/N could feel the toms happy purrs.

"Yeah, I'm sorry for worrying you so much Jayfeather..." Y/W/N said, licking the medicine cats forehead before he jerked up so that his blind gaze met Y/W/N's gaze.

"You're sorry? Don't be! You were so brave from what I heard, you just ran right back in for me, Lionblaze, and Hollyleaf!" Jayfeather said, touching his nose to the warriors.

Y/W/N purred, appreciating the praise from the cat she loved. "That means the world to me Jayfeather" She said, then heard Leafpool clear her throat.

Jayfeather jumped up in shock. "Oh, right..... You're right there Leafpool....." He said, turning around and sighing as Y/W/N just stared at the other medicine cat, unsure of what to do.

Leafpool just purred. "It's fine, just be careful. You never know who might enter at what time" She said. "Let's sort what herbs you brought back"

Jayfeather sighed but turned back around, giving Y/W/N one last nuzzle. "Alright. Y/W/N, please stop almost dying. This is the second time now"

Y/W/N purred and nuzzled back. "I can try. But I do like being here in the medicine cat den!" She said as Jayfeather padded away to help Leafpool, sighing as he heard Y/W/N.

The next few days went by quickly for Y/W/N. Her burns were healing pretty nicely, and she was starting to be able to walk on her burned leg again.

Her chest and throat were feeling much better, and Y/W/N enjoyed being in the medicine cat den with Jayfeather. It seemed like he wasn't ever grumpy around Y/W/N, which was very enjoyable for the she-cat.

As Y/W/N was getting up in the morning and stretching, she suddenly felt quite nauseous. Y/W/N immediately laid back down, which seem to kind of help, but she still felt like she could vomit.

Luckily Y/W/N never did, though the feeling stayed for short while before she felt better. Even after getting up again, it didn't come back, so Y/W/N shrugged it off and chalked it up to her body being weird.

Y/W/N padded out of the medicine cat den, squinting her eyes slightly as the sunlight hit them. A good chuck of the camp was quiet, seeing as patrols were out.

Y/W/N did miss hunting and going on patrols, but she figured it was worth it, as long as she was able to spend more time with Jayfeather. Then she thought back to the dream she had while unconscious from the fire, and suddenly had an idea.

Jayfeather can walk in dreams and memories.... Maybe he can help me figure out what that dream memory was about!

Since Y/W/N hadn't noticed the blind medicine cat in the den, she figured he'd gone into the forest. She decided she'd wait near the bramble entryway for him, however long he took.

It was just between sun high and sunset when Jayfeather padded back into camp. Y/W/N started walking beside him as he nodded to greet her, having caught the she-cats scent.

"I need to ask you something about your powers" Y/W/N whispered to Jayfeather. He seemed surprised by the question but gestured for the warrior to follow him.

The two went back to the medicine cat den and sat down. "Alright, what do you need to know about them Y/W/N?" Jayfeather asked, though he had his usual grumpy tone of voice, which worried Y/W/N slightly, given how he usually seemed to lighten up around her.

"Well, when I was unconscious from the fire, I had this weird dream. Well, it seemed to be more of a memory. I was in some sort of field, and when I padded away a little bit, I stopped at a Thunderpath. Then there was this tom who seemed to be trying to coax me to cross, and the weird part is that he called me Y/L/N" The she-cat explained.

Jayfeather listened to Y/W/N's explanation thoughtfully. "That is weird. You didn't recognize him at all?" He asked, to which the warrior shook her head.

"Not at all, and I couldn't really make out his pelt or anything, just that he had E/C eyes. But in my dream, he came to cross back and got hit by a monster, and died"

Jayfeather nodded "Maybe this is why you don't remember much before you were fending for yourself. Traumatic memories can stop a cat from remembering other things about their life" He spoke calmly, but Jayfeathers thoughts seemed to be elsewhere.

Y/W/N nodded in understanding. "Yeah...." She looked at the blind tom, who seemed to be deep in thought. "Hey, did something happen today? You seem..... grumpier? Maybe angry?"

Jayfeather sighed "Well, I guess I'm having my own troubles. You remember Squirrelflight admitting to Ashfur that me, Lionblaze, and Hollyleaf weren't her kits?" He asked, to which Y/W/N nodded. She couldn't forget that, or how angry at Ashfur she had been, and still was, for trying to kill Jayfeather.

"Well, I've been trying to figure out our real parents, and Im just trying to figure it out. All I remember is that we were born outside of Thunderclan, and that some other cat was with Squirrelflight, but I don't know who."

Y/W/N nuzzled Jayfeather affectionately "Don't worry, I'll help you figure this out" She said, purring as she heard the blind tom slightly purr as well.

"I hope we can figure it out...."