Kellin Quinn Imagines

You Dont Cry Infront Of Him

People call you tough. People call you brave. People call you strong. When infact, you're the exact opposite. You dont ever cry infront of anyone, not even your boyfriend Kellin, because you dont like people seeing you cry. You dont want to seem weak, you have extreme trust issues and you know you look ugly as fuck when you cry, but then the only people that can still look attractive when they cry are band members.

Like right now, for example, you're at home after a long days work. Work wasnt too bad. Its when you got home things turned to shit. You and Kellin were watching a movie, well there was a movie on in the background and you had your arms around eachother, but you were really both just playing on your phones enjoying eachothers company. You decided to check instagram, big mistake. You read through hundreds of hate comments directed to you, you jumped up from the couch and told Kellin you had to pee before running to the bathroom. This is where you are now, locked in the bathroom, leaning against the outside of the bath tub, crying your fucking eyes out silently. You were never one of those people who wanted to be comforted,you were more of the suffer in silence type. You've been in here for half an hour now, crying silently. You think you'll stop crying in about 10 minutes, until you hear a knock on the bathroom door.

"(Y/N)? Are you alright?" Kellin asks through the door.
You put on your well rehearsed happy voice that has always fooled everyone "Yeah, Im fine Kels."
Kellin sighs "Do you honestly think you can fool ME with that voice?"
Shit shit shit. "What do you mean Kels? Im fine!"
"Tell me the truth (Y/N), are you ok?" He asks.
What the fuck!?! Nobody has ever gotten past your voice before!?! You've always been able to persuade everyone before they can ask a second time!?! What are you supposed to say!?! This has cracked you, you werent prepared for this.
"Wh-What did you say?" You ask in reply.
"Are you ok? The honest answer this time please." Kellin asks for the final time.
You sniffle "No!" Then you burst into tears.
"Oh my god (Y/N)! Are you crying!?! Whats wrong baby, tell me!?!" Kellin begs through the door.
"I-Its nothing, honestly!" You stand up and wipe your eyes, washing your face, brushing your hair so you look almost presentable before opening the door and smiling at Kellin. "See? Absolutely fine!" You try to get past him but he stands infront of you.
"Why wont you tell me whats wrong?" He asks.
You laugh "Because there's nothing to tell you! Im fine!"
Kellin shakes his head "No you're not, you cant just act like you werent crying in there when I clearly heard you. Why wont you open up to me?"
Nobody has ever asked you that before. "B-Because I dont know how!" That does it, you fall to your knees and start sobbing. Kellin gasps and bends down to pick you up, carrying you to the bedroom. He sits you on the bed and holds your hands while sitting opposite you.
"Tell me everything, right now." Kellin demands.
You sniffle "I-I dont like crying infront of anyone, ever. I never have done. U-Usually Im able to persuade people Im ok before they can ask a second time, so they leave me alone. I hate crying infront of people, I dont want to seem weak and I know Im ugly as fuck when I cry! B-But nobody has ever asked a second time, or realized I was lying when I said I was ok. I-I've never opened up to anyone in my life, b-because I struggle to trust people. Im sorry Im not the strong, brave and independent girl you fell for." You start crying hysterically again.
Kellin shakes his head and pulls you into his arms "(Y/N), you can cry infront of me whenever you feel like it. Im not going to make fun of you for it or call you weak, just because you cry doesnt make you any less strong, or any less brave. It just shows that you've been so strong and so brave for such a long time that its finally got to you, and thats ok. I know you have trust issues baby, but you can trust me. I trust you with my life, all my secrets, everything, because I love you. Im not as easily fooled as others, and Im glad of that. So dont hold back anymore baby. In future, if you need to cry, just walk up to me, hug me if Im standing up or curl up on my lap if Im on the couch, and cry. You dont have to tell me whats wrong, but I will comfort you and I will help you to the best of my ability, thats a promise."
You nod into his shirt "Ok, I'll do that. Thank you so much Kellin, I love you too."

~ a week later ~

You got home from work and went onto instagram again, why the fuck do you keep doing that!?! The hate got to you once again, you walked over to the bathroom, then stopped, remembering what Kellin had told you. You turn around and walk into the living room, Kellin is sitting on the couch watching The Terminator, one of your favorite movies. You stroll over to him and stand infront of him for a second, he looks up at you with furrowed eyebrows, your chin begins to wobble and he gasps, opening his arms for you. You crawl into his lap and curl into a ball. Kellin wraps his arms around you and comforts you, telling you over and over again you were safe with him, he'd never let anyone hurt you and everything was going to be ok. Once you started to believe him, the tears slowed and soon completely halted. You changed position so you could see the TV and started watching The Terminator with Kellin. He smiled and kissed you softly, bringing a smile to your face. Because, even though you didnt tell him what was wrong with you, he was there for you, he made you feel loved, he made you feel strong, he made you feel protected and he made you feel like everything was ok, just like he promised he would.