Kellin Quinn Imagines

You Try To Commit Suicide

This is it. The end of the line. You're sitting at the foot of your bed right now, crying and staring blankly at the wall in front of you. You've been depressed for what seems like forever at this point. Anti-depressants aren't helping. You don't have the energy to do anything anymore, you just stare and think too deeply about everything. Life is pointless. You are pointless. No matter what you do in your lifetime, you will be insignificant. You decide to end it, right now. You type out a letter to Kellin, your best friend, and send it to him via text. You can finally admit your feelings to him and tell him how much he means to you, because none of that will matter now.

You: Dear Kellin,

I'm so sorry. I really am. I'm sorry for being such a bad friend to you. I'm sorry for being so depressed all the time. I'm sorry for shutting you out when all you wanted to do was help me. I'm sorry for being such a burden to you. I'm sorry for worrying you. But that's all going to change now. Its the end for me Kellin. I can't do this anymore. Staring blankly at walls in deep thought is not a way to live your life, but its how I'm living mine, and I don't want to anymore. I can't. I'm so sorry, but I'm ending it. Please, don't blame yourself. It isn't anyone's fault but my own, I decided to do this. I'm stupid, insignificant, hopeless, useless and unloved. Nobody will miss me. You'll get over it soon enough Im sure, find someone else to love you as much as I did. Yes, I love you. I always have. More than a friend. I love you more than a friend should. I figured I can tell you this now, as it won't matter. I know you never felt or will feel the same, and that's ok, because I understand why. Why would someone as perfect as you love someone as broken as me? Exactly, you wouldn't, and I've come to terms with that. But...I just want you to know that in my last moments...I will think of you, how happy you made me, because you were the only happiness in my life for such a long time, my own little ray of sunshine. You were my everything, my world, but when you aren't with me...everything goes wrong. You don't see how I act when I'm alone, you don't see what I turn into. I'm so sorry Kellin, I love you so much.

Goodbye forever,

(Y/N) x

And just as you put your phone down on the bed and start walking to the bathroom, it starts blowing up with notifications. You're being texted, called, snapchatted, dm'd on Instagram, tweeted, everything. You shake your head, not reading through any of them, and continue walking to the bathroom. On the way you grab a large kitchen knife, yes, this should do the job. Then you go into the bathroom and lock yourself inside. You sit in the corner of the room, huddling in the corner. You take the knife, turning it over in your hands and watching the light bounce off it, before holding it to your wrist. You slice once, and its only small, it doesn't even hurt. You slice deeper the next time, and it hurts a little. The sound of your beating heart fills your ears, adrenaline is pumping through your veins. Tears fall from your eyes as you think about why you're doing this in the first place. Useless. Hopeless. Unloved. Unwanted. Insignificant. Useless. Hopeless. Unloved. Unwanted. Insignificant. Useless. Hopeless. Unlo-and suddenly someone else is in the bathroom with you, they broke your door down to get in here. You look up at the strange person to see its none other than Kellin. He crouches down in front of you and holds out his hand shakily. He looks like he's been crying.
"Please (Y/N), give me the knife." Kellin begs in a hoarse whisper.
You raise an eyebrow "Wh-Why?"
"Didn't you read my texts? Tweets? Dm's?" He asks.
You shake your head "N-No...sorry..."
He sighs and shakes his head "Give me the knife, go and read through them, I'll clean this up for you." He smiles weakly at you.
You sniffle and hand him the knife, he helps you stand up. You hug him "Th-Thank you Kellin."
"Its no problem (Y/N)." He replies.
You let go of him and stroll back to your room. You pick up your phone.

Kellinquinn tweeted: (Y/N) DONT DO THIS!!! I NEED YOU!!!

Text from Kels: WHAT!?! NO! DONT DO THIS! I LOVE YOU TOO, I ALWAYS HAVE! PLEASE! DONT LEAVE ME!

Kellinquinn direct messaged you: (Y/N) ARE YOU THERE!?!?!

Missed call from Kels.

Missed call from Kels.

Missed call from Kels.

Text from Kels: IM COMING OVER! PLEASE, STAY ALIVE! I NEED YOU! DONT LEAVE ME! PLEASE!

Missed call from Kels.

Kels left you a message.

You're nearly crying. He cares. He actually cares. And he loves you too. You press his message and listen to him.
"(Y/N) are you there? Please, answer me! Or at least wait for me! I love you, please, don't do this! I need you! Stay! Please!" You can tell he was crying while driving when he made that call. Oh my god. You put your phone back on the bed with tears in your eyes and walk back to the bathroom. You wrap some toilet roll around your bleeding wrist. Kellin is mopping up the blood, sniffling as he does.
"K-Kellin?" You whisper hoarsely.
He sniffles and stands up, throwing the blood covered tissue in the toilet and flushing it before turning around to face you "Mhmm?"
"I-I uh...I checked my..my phone..." You whisper, biting your lip.
Kellin blushes "Yeah...uh..."
You wrap your arms around his middle and snuggle into him "Thank you Kellin! Thank you for caring and trying to stop me, thank you for being there for me through thick and thin, thank you for everything!" You start crying into his shirt.
He wraps his arms around you "When I first read that text...I couldn't believe it! I honestly couldn't! I tried everything, crying the whole time because I knew I couldn't live without you. I'm so sorry I didn't tell you sooner, I should have, then you never would've done this!" Kellin cries.
You shake your head "That doesn't matter now Kels, what matters is I know, and I won't try and end my life anymore. I promise. I've never seen or heard you in so much pain, I couldn't do that to you again, so I'm not going to. I'm staying Kellin, for as long as you want me here."
Kellin sniffles "Y-You're not gonna do it?"
You shake your head into his shirt "No, not after I've seen and heard how much it would hurt you if I did."
He sighs with relief "Thank fuck! God (Y/N), you scared the shit out of me!"
You giggle and kiss his chest through his shirt "I love you too."
Kellin gasps "Wh-Wha!?!"
You giggle and look up at him "You said it to me so many times, in texts, missed calls, I figured I should say it back."
Kellin cups your cheek with his hand "D-Do you mean it?"
You snuggle into his palm "Yes, I love you so much Kellin."
He smiles adorably before leaning in and kissing you softly. It was brief and very, very sweet. "I love you so much too (Y/N). Will you be my girlfriend?"
You bite your lip and close your eyes "Dreams can come true!" You whisper, Kellin laughs. You open your eyes and smile at him "Yes, I'd love to Kellin!"
This time he kisses you properly, wrapping his arms around your waist, pulling you closer to him. One of your hands is gripping the collar of his shirt, the other is locked in his amazing hair. You both pull away, completely breathless, and rest your foreheads together.
"I have one more question." Kellin whispers, biting his lip.
You raise an eyebrow "Really? Ok then, ask away!"
Kellin smiles and takes a deep breath, closing his eyes "Will you stay forever with me?"
You blush a violent shade of red. He looks so cute and incredibly nervous. You peck his lips repeatedly until he opens his eyes, then you smile widely at him. "Forever and always."
Kellin smiles wider than you've ever seen him smile before and kisses you again. And so began your perfect life.