Kellin Quinn Imagines

He Finds You

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~ TRIGGER WARNING ~

You couldnt hold it back anymore. It was around midnight and the urges were getting unbearable. You grabbed a blade and stuffed it in your pocket, smiling slightly. Then you picked yourself up off the bathroom floor, and left your house. You were desperate, but you couldnt do it here, someone could find you. HE could find you. HE being Kellin Quinn, your best friend. He'd be so disappointed in you, he might leave you forever, you couldnt live without him. You strolled down your street, the street lights guiding you to your destination, until you reached the park. You sat on the bench that looked out at the almost glass-like pond. The moon was reflecting perfectly on the waters surface and the stars were like glitter in the dark night sky, it was beautiful. You'd left your phone at home, so you didnt get interrupted with what you're about to do. This is your favorite place, nobody but you comes here this late, you can finally be alone. You pulled the blade our of your pocket and lifted your long sleeves up. You gently dragged the blade across your skin and hissed as it makes its first incision, then you smile at the relief it brings you.

There is blood trickling down your arms now and you're starting to feel weaker. You want to stop, but you ca-
"Esme? Is that you?" A voice you knew all too well said from behind you.
"Y-Yeah." You shoved the blade back in your pocket and pulled your sleeves down, thankful for the darkness and the fact that Kellin wont be able to see the blood soaking through your sleeves.
He sits beside you on the bench "I texted you...are you ok?"
You nod "Yeah, I...I just uh...I left my phone at home, I wanted to come out here..."
Kellin nods and smiles at you "That doesnt surprise me, I know how much you love this place."
You grow curious "Why'd you text me? Was there something you wanted?"
Kellin laughs slightly "I just wanted to talk to you I guess, I've missed you...after you didnt reply, I went over to your place and knocked for you, but got no reply, so my next guess was that you were here, and it seems I was right!"
"I've missed you too Kels..." You say softly.
He smiles widely at you "C'mon, lets go back to your place and watch a movie or something!" He stands up and holds his hand out for you "Arent you cold?"
You shake your head and pull yourself up "N-No...I've got long sleeves on, Im fine."
Kellin laughs and nods "You and your long sleeved shirts! I swear you have an addictio-" as he reaches for your hand, it brushes your sleeve, and he feels how wet it is. "Esme...why's your sleeve wet?" You stand up but instantly fall to the floor. "Esme!?! Whats wrong!?!" Then you see it, a few feet away from you. Your blade had fallen out of your pocket when you fell over, and its reflecting the light of the moon. You look over at it and instantly feel ashamed, tears fill your eyes. Kellin follows your gaze and gasps. He picks up the small piece of metal. "D-Did you...did you do it again?"
You sniffle and nod "I-Im so sorry!"
Kellin shakes his head and throws the blade into the pond "Dont be, Im not mad at your Esme, Im just disappointed."
You cry harder "Thats what I was afraid of! You being disappointed in me is the worst feeling in the world!"
Kellin shakes his head and cups your cheek with his hand "No Esme, Im disappointed in myself for not being there for you, for not getting here sooner, for not saving you."
You shake your head "I-Its not your fault Kellin! D-Dont blame yourself! P-Please!" You start crying hysterically. Kellin picks you up and carries you bridal style back to your house, you unlock it and he kicks the door open before sitting you on the couch. He starts running around your house and comes back moments later with bandages. He lifts your soaked sleeves with shaking hands and bites his lip, closing his eyes in a pained blink as he sees your cuts for the first time. He wraps up your wounds and kisses your scars through the bandages before sitting beside you on the couch and pulling you into his arms.
"Listen to me Esme. I know you feel alone a lot of the time, I know you feel like you're lost, like you're thrown away, but Im here for you, ok? I feel exactly the same sometimes, like a waste of space, but I stay for you, do you understand that? We're better than this, so much fucking better than this! We're strays, and we've gotta stick together, alright?" Kellin says in a soft voice, kissing your hair.
You giggle and sniffle "Y'know its really not cool to make references to your own songs right? Even if they are subtle!"
Kellin laughs "Hey! Im fucking cool!"
"Of COURSE you are!" You tease.
"Cool enough to be friends with an amazing girl like you..." He says quietly.
"Ha! Im not amazing, at all!" You argue.
"Yes you are! You're so fucking amazing! You're beautiful, funny, quirky, sassy and everything a guy could dream of! You're perfect!" Kellin retorts.
You roll your eyes into his shirt "If I was all of those things I wouldnt be single, now would I? Beat that Quinn!"
He sighs "If you noticed the obvious you wouldnt be single! If you noticed all the hints! If you noticed the way CERTAIN GUYS act around you! If you noticed how a CERTAIN GUY smiles whenever he simply THINKS about you!"
You raise an eyebrow "And who is this 'certain guy' you speak of? Do I know him!?!"
Kellin nods "The guy who has been there for you through thick and thin, the one who has loved you since the day he met you, the one who cant stop thinking about you, the one who thinks you're the most perfect woman on the planet!"
Your eyebrows furrow "Im really sorry, but I still have NO IDEA who you're talking about!"
Kellin lifts you off his lap and stands up "How about this: the ONE guy standing right in front of you at this very fucking moment!" He says before storming out of the house.
You jump and and run after him "KELLIN!!! WAIT!!!" You cry. He's gone. You've lost him. You cant see him anywhere. He admitted he has fucking feelings for you, and you were too blind to see it. You fall to your knees and start sobbing in the street. "He doesnt know!" You cry "He doesnt fucking know, and its all my fault!" You clutch your red hair as you sob.
"What dont I know?" Someone asks. You look up and see Kellin standing there, tears in his eyes, looking broken. He pulls you up. "What dont I fucking know Esme!?! Tell me so I can leave and get over this hopeless crush!"
You sniffle "I-Im sorry!"
His arms drop to his sides "Thats is? Thats all you've gotta say!?!" He shakes his head and turns around, he starts walking away from you.
"Y-You said you'd always be there for me. You...You said you'd never leave me, never shout at me, never make me feel like everyone else made me feel. You said I'd never be alone. Y-You said we had to stick together! You're fucking perfect Kellin, its not that I didnt NOTICE YOU, its that I couldnt BELIEVE you could have feelings for me! But that doesnt matter now, because you hate me. You broke all your promises and left me broken, just like everyone else!" You cry.
Kellin stops walking and turns around to face you again "I dont want to leave you Esme! I fucking love you, and thats why I have to go! I cant deal with the pain of knowing you dont feel the same, I've had a huge crush on you fir so long, and it hurts! Dont you understand the pain Im in!?!"
You sniffle "Do YOU understand the pain of watching the person you love with all your heart, the most perfect person on the planet, walking away from you because you were blind and stupid? Do YOU understand the pain of knowing that the one you love hates you and wants to walk away from you!?! Do YOU understand that all of those things I just described are what IM going through!?! Because I fucking love you too, you just didnt give me the chance to say it!" You fall to the ground again, too weak to stand any longer.
Kellin runs over to you and picks you up, pulling you into his chest. "Y-You love me!?!"
"More than you'll ever fucking know! Dont go! I cant live without you!" You sob into his shirt.
He rubs your back "Im not leaving, Im not leaving, Im staying here." He sings "I love you so fucking much Esme, will you be my girlfriend?"
You nod frantically into his shirt "Y-Yes!"
"Im so sorry for making you cry." He says as he kisses your hair.
You pull away from him and sniffle, wiping your eyes before smiling at him "Dont worry about it, Im not mad at you for it, lets go inside and watch a movie or something, yeah?" You wink at him.
Kellin laughs and nods, taking your hand in his "That sounds perfect."