Anastasia Catts

Not Sure Knowing

People rush by me as they leave the classroom. No one wants be be here. I collect my books and put them into my bag. I walk to my locker like a mindless zombie. Should I go? I don't want to keep him there. He's waiting. But... What would I even say. I put my book away and start walking out the door.

"Ana!" A voice calls after me from behind. I can hear it over the crowd and footsteps.

I look back and stop. I smile faintly, guessing what she's going to ask me. Am I going? "Hey Annie."

"Are you going?" She puts her arm around me and pulls me closer to her. We turn around together and I catch a glimpse of Vincent following us behind.

I sigh softly as I've been trying to figure this out all day, "I'm not sure. I'll figure it out though, I promise."

We get outside and warm air touches my skin. We pause at the front gates as this is where I think we should separate. I need a walk. I just...

"I'm gonna go on a walk, I'll see you guys later though," Annie takes her arm from me and Vincent is quick to swoop in at her side.

"Alright, bye," Annie smiles and they both walk away.

I look through my bag and grab my headphones. I plug my headphones into my phone and press play. Human, by Christina Perri. (Yass that reference ;D XD) A song that makes me feel like I shouldn't give up. But also that I should. That I will do anything to make him happy. He's not happy. Doubtful.

"I can take so much...
'Till I've had enough...

But I'm only human..." I sing along quietly as the song nears the end.

I need to decide. But even if I decide to to 'fall in love with him' or whatever... It doesn't mean he actually does back. He does. Smh. I shake my head and continue walking.

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I pause my YouTube video as I look at the time on my phone. 5:47. Guilt floods my face. I just don't want to go... I feel terrible about it. I don't even know what to say. Why would I talk to some 'bad boy' stranger. I know he's friend's with Annie, but I just... It doesn't make any sense to me. I don't even know if he would understand. What did Annie even tell him about me?

I look back at my PewDiePie watching. I laugh a little. I have no life whatsoever. I roll my eyes and sigh.

~ I Feel Like I've Done Something Wrong ~

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