Fixing A Broken Heart [Completed]

C26. Face It

Marco's POV

The moment she walked out on me, I felt my world  shaken. I am guilty. I've cheated on her. I hurt her. I deserve her slap and anger.

Pero ano bang gagawin ko, kung mahal ko pa si Lara. Lalo lang siyang masasaktan na sya ang kasama ko pero iba ang nasa puso ko.

But seeing her cry like that, I wanted to pull her to my arms forever. Parang dinudurog ang puso ko. I feel her pain. At ang masakit, ako ang may gawa noon. I wanted to abandon the path I've chosen--- get back to Lara. Pero wala na. What is done is done. It's over.

Agad kong kinuha ang phone ko and called Lara.

" Babe, let's meet. I'll pick you up. " bungad ko sa kanya.

" Ok. Andito lang ako sa condo. Text me when you're here na. I love you. "

" I-I love you too. " I ended the call.

Halos hindi ako makahinga. Like those words will choke me out.

I heaved a sigh. Seriously, this guilt is killing me. Minahal ko naman si Justine pero mahal ko pa rin si Lara.

Argh. Why is love, so complicated?

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" Macki, I'm sorry if you have to go through this. I-I just love you. " Lara's biting her lip. She's guilty also.

I told her what happened earlier. And that's what she said. " It's not your fault. Ako ang may kasalanan. I know I still have feelings for you, but I still pursued her. Akala ko kasi, wala ng pag asa dahil may asawa at anak ka na. " and that's the truth. Mahal ko naman si Justine and put all my stake to that love. It was my only hope so I could move on and forget about Lara. And have another chance to love again.

" I have no intentions to ruin your relationship. Justine is good a woman. Kaya lang, hindi ko rin naman maatim na iparaya ka sa iba. " malungkot na sabi niya.

" I know. And it's my choice. Nasaktan ko na siya. Tapos na. All I could do is to set her free dahil lalo lang syang masasaktan. Inaamin kong minahal ko syang talaga, Lara. I hope you understand. "

Tumango naman siya." I understand. And would you believe that I also fell in love with my husband? " mapait siyang napangiti." But that love is not enough to forget you, Macki. "

" Siguro nagmahal tayo ng iba, pero sa huli, sa isa't-isa pa rin tayo babagsak...."bumuntong hininga ako. "So, let's start over again, Ms. Del Castillo? " I finally flashed a smile.

Ngumiti sya at tumango." Gladly. "

Niyakap ko sya at hinalikan sa ulo. I closed my eyes. This is it. But....

But a vivid image came rushing....

Justine...

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Buong gabi akong hindi nakatulog. I'm thinking of what just happened.  I'm thinking about Justine.

Nasaktan ko sya. At hindi ko naman ikakailang nagsisisi ako sa nagawa ko. If only, I settled my feelings first for Lara. If only I didn't make a drastic move when I pursued Justine. Hindi sana mangyayari ito. Sana pinag isipan kong maigi. Pero huli na ang lahat para magsisi. Nasaktan ko na sya. At hindi ko na iyon mababawi pa.

Kinabukasan ay hindi ako pumasok sa opisina. Tanghali na akong bumangon at wala na ring tao sa bahay kundi ang mga kasambahay.

Pagkatapos kumain ay naisipan kong puntahan si daddy. I know, he's the right person to talk to.