L (Lyndon)

Chapter twenty

Ch 20 

"Wake up, Now" Tom ripped back the blankets to reveal Lucas dressed in nothing, but his boxer shorts. He had worn little else and a T-shirt if they were lucky, for days. "Lucas come on, I need help and your the one who's going to do it" 

"Why?" it came out more of demand rather then a question, as Lucas sat, swinging his legs over the side of the bed, and rubbing sleep from his face. 

"Because, you need to do something, she will not want to stay if she sees you like this when she comes back" 

"Well she wont stay if she sees me acting like everything is just fine, like I can do just as well without her, like-" 

"Lucas, we all know how you feel, look at you, it blatantly obvious, you wear nothing more then what you have on, you haven't shaved in the two weeks shes been gone, and for the past three days you haven't even left this room, look at your plate, the only thing you have touched is the tea I keep bringing you with every meal, then I end up taking the rest away again. Not eating is doing you no good. 

"So get up, get dressed and help me collect any animal that may be in the traps, that I re-set yesterday. To tell you the truth I'm happy with anything dead, but I can't stand to touch a live and dieing animal, and you don't seem to mind so much" 

"What about Ash? He's loads better now, anyway how'd you get the door open?" 

"It took three of us, but we managed to snap the tree branch she had used, I think she just ned to know we would stay and that we were somewhere safe until she came back. 

"And Ash is busy with the bomb, now that he can use his had better, he still has quite a few weeks of healing left to go, but he would not listen, so I just let him carry on, he will only cause more trouble without out something to do, plus he has to start over, remember" 

"Alan then?" 

"Starting to prepare tea that is why I need to go now, or it tinned food again. Come on, even if you wont eat, though you need to, the rest of us need food, it wont seem like that long if you find something to do until she returns. Then you can shower and shave I'm positive she wont stay or be happy with us if we let you wonder around smelling like you do, she is quite happy with you the way you looked" 

"Fine" his answer came through clenched teeth "Give me five, and I'll be right there" 

Tom left Lucas to it, and went to collect a plastic box from the storage room. 

It was hard, for even him to understand how much it truly did feel like all the joy and life of the place had been sucked dry since Lyn's departure, she brought so much energy to the place and now that she had gone he could see just how unhappy they all seemed, it wasn't just Lucas. But on the other hand it was easier for him to get on with other things now there was no one he felt he need to fuss over all the time. He had never had someone he loved before and no one had ever taken anything as important as a child from him, Lucas may never see them again, never seen it born or grow. 

Time here must have almost stopped for Lucas with every breath being simply painful, waking up to that moment were everything is just as it should be, nothing can hurt you is all perfect them it hits you like a sledge hammer that nothings okay and may never be again, never hold that little life in his arms never wake up to Lyn's face again. 

Lucas waited contently for her return, all the wile knowing she may very well decided, not to listen to what he had to say and she may leave again as quickly as she had come taking their baby with her, his family gone lost because of his own stupidity and so to the many more children they could have together.