No Ordinary Love

Chapter 37

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"Shut the fuck up he kissed you. Holy shit I didn't think he had the balls. I'm proud." Angie smiled.

They had gotten home late last night and slept in. Zayra had just told her what Ryan did last night.

"Me neither."

"How was it?" Angie's eyebrows shooting up and down.

Zayra touched her lips. "he was angry at me so it was a bit rough. He has soft lips." She was analyzing the kiss.

Angie shook her head. "Noo how was it."

She thought, "I enjoyed it, but I was stoned and tipsy and I miss Roman very much. The way Ryan looks at me sometimes " she shook her head, "I'll only hurt him. I love Roman very much but Ryan sometimes makes me nervous."

"Because you like him."

She shrugged. "I do, but not romantically either. He's starting to grow on me you know, kinda like you." She smiled at Angie, but then frowned continuing. "I want him to understand there's no future between us. None."

"Have you said this to him."

"All the time." She groaned.

"Yeah he has it pretty bad for you."

"How do I make him stop?"

"I don't know, treating him bad is not helping maybe being nice." She shrugged.

"Nah ah, I've tried that already once before."

"Really, what happened."

"I fell in love with Roman."

Angie grinned. "I fucking hate you, you know. Lucky bitch, you have a stud already, stop looking at others."

"I'm not." She put her face on her pillow.

"I know, I'm teasing."

They stood quiet for a while. Thinking about the situation.

"What if we make sure you're not left alone with him."

Zayra nodded.

"No rides, no tutoring, if we're out socially no dancing together."

"Done."

"I feel so bad, to like someone so much and they don't feel the same is horrible."

Zayra looked at her. Was she talking about herself?

"Should I tell Roman?"

"Heelll noo." She looked at her as if she was crazy. "What's there to tell, it was nothing right, it meant nothing."

"Exactly. So that's why I should."

"No Zayra. It'll get ugly. It might be nothing to you but it's big for them."

Zayra looked at her fingers and sighed. She turned her body on the bed and faced the ceiling. "I don't want to hurt them Angie but sometimes I can't help it. I don't know if I'll ever trust anyone, especially men. I want to hurt them like I've been hurt so I push them away. But they don't leave."

"Because they love you, they're trying to fight for you. Of course you don't trust anyone but they know this so they keep trying and trying and trying." Angie had a wistful smile.

"You've had such a hard life Zayra, it's amazing to hear some of the stories Nico says about you." She turned to look at her, eyes sober."You must know that you have people around you that really care for you, like me Zayra. Granted we may not be blood and it'll never compare but I'd like to be part of your life."