HunHan [Book 2]: Dealing With Oh Sehun [BoyxBoy]

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Sehun's POV, kalma lang. :")
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Sehun

Luhan slapped me over and over and over again. Yung tipong binubuhos nya lahat ng natitirang lakas nya. I endured it because I deserved it. I broke his trust, I hurted him and, I cheated on him. The LAST time I saw him crying, I really wanted to hug him but then, the more I see him hurt, when he told me he trust me and the deeper this guilt on my chest; the more I loses this 'guts' to face him. I don't know what I was thinking with my balls back then but, that doesn't mean I don't love Luhan. I do fcking love him and, still loving him even more every single day.

But I ruined it.. Our marriage.

"Si Yna? Si Yna ba yung babae?! Anak mo ba yung dinadala nya ha, Sehun? Ikaw ba ang tatay nun? Sumagot ka!" Tumango ako at pinagsusuntok nya ang dibdib ko, palakas nang palakas. I held his hand and pulled him into a hug. Hearing his constant loud sobs is only making me want to hit my head. Luhan gave his all to me and all I ever did in return is hurt him. "Ang sakit, ang sakit sakit eh."

"...." I don't know what to say. It will only appear as if I'm making excuses.. What is there left for me to explain? Ayoko ko na syang bitawan ngayon, cause when I do, I don't think I will be able to hug him again.

Luhan calmed down eventually and shoved my hand away, "Now it all make sense," he chuckled sarcastically, "I, I was so stupid to think that the reason you're always mad whenever I mentioned about you having kid is not because you don't want to hurt me," he stared at me. His eyes, so weak yet burning red in anger, "Pinagtatakpan mo lang kasi ang 'katarandaduhang' ginawa mo sa akin. How many times ha, Sehun?! How many damn times did you fck her?"

"Luhan, I'm sorry, please."

"Sorry? Tapos ano? Sasabihin mo na sana maintindihan ko? Fck! Pagod na pagod na ako umintindi! Pagod na akong intindihin ka, Oh Sehun!" Napasabunot sya sa buhok nya and his sobs went even uncontrollable, "Ang sabi mo kinontrata mo lang sya, you fcking liar. I can't believe you fooled me!" He said with a brittle tone, "Ano, you send her off o, patago mong sinusustentuhan ha? Ah, hindi mo alam tapos nagreunion kayo nung aksidente? Baka naman inulit nyo pa?! You know what, just — get out."

I massaged my temples, feeling scared for what's going to happen. I don't wanna lose him — just not him. Luhan is everything to me but — I should have known better that this is the consequences of having an affair with Yna. Fck. I held his hand but he keeps shoving it away, "Alam ko kahit na anong sabihin ko ngayon, hindi na nun maalis ang pagkakamaling nagawa ko," I took a deep breath, meeting his teary eyes, "But swear, I was thinking about you, that it was really you, Luhan." I told him, crying.

"Thinking about me? Naisip mo sana na masasaktan ako eh habang tinutuhog mo sya.. na may asawa ka! Get out. Get out!" he shouted. Humiga ulit sya at tinalikuran ako. I didn't move an inch, I was staring at his shaking back and then, I remembered that moment when I accidentally strangled him before. I remembered those teary eyes while he was struggling hard to — breathe.

I fcking hate myself for all those years while I was having my treatment. I decided to be a better man when I face him again but now, I hate myself even more today. I hurt him for the second time around, not physically but, emotionally. And my sins are unforgivable.

I remembered it, that night.

"What? Aalis ka pa rin?" I asked.

"Sehun, isang linggo lang naman ang seminar na yun sa States. 'Di naman forever. Ako pinadala dun ng ospital. Hindi ba napagusapan na natin yun?" Luhan said while fixing his things. He'll be away for a week para sa pisting seminar.