HunHan [Book 2]: Dealing With Oh Sehun [BoyxBoy]

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"Maghiwalay na tayo, Sehun."

"Babe, please tell me it just came out of your mouth. Hindi ka makikipaghiwalay di ba?" he said in a low voice, holding both of my hands. Napabuntong hininga ako at tila pagod na pagod na umupo sa higaan.

"Nope. I want a divorce."

Natulala sya sa akin ng ilang segundo dahil sa narinig at niyakap ako ng mahigpit while he's crying helplessly on my thigh. Ramdam ko ng basa ang hita ko dahil sa luha nya. "No please, Luhan. Make me suffer but please don't leave me. Please," Napahinga ako ng malalim. Ilang beses nyang binabanggit ang please sa tonong biyak. "Gagawin ko lahat, huwag mo lang ako iwan. Hindi ko kaya."

"Di mo kaya? Pero kaya mo magloko?"

"I'm so sorry for being selfish,"

"Hindi ko rin kaya, Sehun." he lifted his head to meet my gaze. His eyes still wet for constant crying. Napapagod na ako sa mga nangyayari na gusto ko ng gumive up. I felt like I don't have that enough energy to fight back. "Hindi ko rin kayang patawarin ka. Why don't you just spend your days with Yna and the kid?" Napabitaw sya sa akin. I bowed down, "I'll process the papers once the killer is arrested." sabi ko't tumayo na.

"Babe, don't do this." he said, crying.

Hinawi ko ang kamay nya, "I already did. Once the court approves it, I'll take this house, Sehun. Pack up your things.. and take that bitch outta here. But maybe, I will be more happy kung AALIS na kayo. Whenever I see you two, it's making me want to kill someone. Baka hindi na ako makapagpigil." madiin na dugtong ko pa.

"Luhan, no. Give me another chance."

"Chance? Sa movie lang yun."

"P-Please," he held my hand, looking at me with such teary eyes, swallowed by sadness. I tried to get his hand off me but he pulled me into a hug instead. His sobs even louder. Right at there, I don't know what to do. Yes, hearing him cry melts this anger but when I think about how he cheated on me or how he thrusted deeper inside Yna for I don't know how many times to get her pregnant, it's fueling back this anger in me, and this pain in my chest. I can't seem to ignore it.

Hindi ako martyr. Hindi ako si Rizal.

"Bitaw na, Sehun." I told him but he's not moving, instead, he tightened his hug; not letting me have the opportunity to push him away from me. "Sehun, ano ba! Hindi na ako makahinga!" I punched his back for a couple of times but he won't still let me go. My hands went down, just letting him cry on my shoulder and it's breaking my heart in pieces. "Ano bang nangyayari sa atin? Bat ba nangyayari sa atin to, Sehun?" I said as a tear fell from my eyes. Humigpit lalo ang yakap nya sa akin. "Just let me go, please."

"I.. I can't.." he said, weeping.

"Just the two of us," I paused, "Ain't that not enough? You should've told me, may iba namang paraan." Lumuwag ang yakap nya at tinitigan ako. I cupped his face with my free hand. I don't want to remember the sad look in his eyes. I do love him but this is tearing me apart. "You just really made me feel so useless, Sehun, for I can't give you what will really make you happy. Sorry ah?" he shooked his head, "pero wala eh. Cannot be." he held my hand on his face.

"I'm sorry," he murmured. He cupped my face and gave me a kiss. I didn't respond yet hindi ko rin sya tinulak. He started trailing kisses on my cheeks down to my neck and shoulder. I stand still looking at the door. His hands works inside my shirt with his warm and passionate kisses. He lay me down the bed, continuously kissing me and stopped when he noticed I'm not responding to it.