HunHan [Book 2]: Dealing With Oh Sehun [BoyxBoy]

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I decided to change this book into MPREG at itutuloy ko ang Book 3. I know this is too late pero okay lang ba? Walang huge changes sa story, hindi lang mabuntis pa rin si Luhan. :)
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Luhan

Iyak lang ako nang iyak paglabas ni Sehun. Hindi ko lubos maisip na magagawa nya sa akin yun. I was so confident because I trust him, his words and his love for me but still, bumigay sya sa kalibughan nya. Di ko alam kung saan ako magsisimula. Hindi mawala yun sa isip ko. He had sex with her at may baby pa. Complete family na sila.. Bakit ba kasi di ako mabuntis buntis eh? Kung sana noon pa nabigyan ko na si Sehun, hindi to mangyayari. I should be the one to blame.

Whenever I look at Sehun, iba na nakikita kong imahe. It's him having sex with her. I can't even look at him for a second. I'm mad like, I just want to slap him on repeat until I get exhausted. Hindi ko sila mapapatawad.

"Luhan?" Detective called. Umupo sya sa gilid ko at humarap ako sa kanya, "Anong nangyari? Bakit ka umiiyak? Nagaway kayo ni Sehun?" sunod sunod na tanong nya. Hindi ako sumagot at pinunasan ang luha ko. Si Kharin Mikuto, laging nandyan whenever I need someone to console me, whenever I need someone to talk to. Feels like, he's the only person I can count on as for now. "Tahan na. Magbabati din kayo. Sabi ko, sa bawat away dapat tumitibay ang tali di ba?" Napabangon ako dahil sa sinabi nya. Tumitibay ang tali? Not always.

"It depends, Kharin. Sa ginawa nya sa akin, I don't think mapapatibay pa nun ang tali bilang magasawa. Ang tiwala ay ang rope na yun. Paano titibay yun kung pinuputol nya? Magbabati? I don't think so. I won't forgive him this time." sabi ko sa mahinang tono habang yakap yakap ko ang binti ko, "Ginago nya ako.... I trusted him but, what did I ever get in return? I can't give him a child ayon — naghanap sya ng iba na mabibigyan sya. Magsama sila for all I care!" galit na galit na sabi ko.

"Anong plano mo ngayon?"

"I don't know," I answered.

"Hihiwalayan mo ba sya?"

Hindi ako sumagot. Mahal ko si Sehun pero hindi ko na kaya. "One thing is for sure, I won't leave the house. Bahay ko yun." Ito ang naisagot ko. Detective Mikuto sighed in frustration. Humiga ako ulit at tinitigan ang kisame. Hindi ko naisip na mararanasan ko ang ganitong bagay. In the end, Sehun, just made me feel lonely like his mother. What his father did to his mom. Partly, I blamed myself. I shouldn't be blaming it all to him but I don't think I can continue this further.

...our marriage. It's definitely broken.

"Pahupain mo muna ang galit mo." sabi nya, "Wag ka munang magdesisyon agad at baka pagsisihan mo lang. Ano ba kasi nangyari?" tanong nya. Ewan ko kung ano ng dapat kong isipin. May anak sya sa iba. I just don't know how can I cope up with that every single day. Matagal bago ako sumagot.

"He had an affair. He fooled — me, anak nya pala ang pinagbubuntis ni Yna." sabi ko at napabuntong hininga, "In the end, he is just like one of those guys. Don't know how to control their lust." sabi ko at bigla syang napaubo, "Problema mo dyan? Bat inuubo ka? Tinatamaan ka siguro ano?!"

"Uy hindi ah, hindi ako ganun."

"Kunwari ka pa dyan." asar ko.

Napakamot sya sa batok nya, "He had an affair for sex or for a kid but I know he loves you, Luhan." Hindi na ako sumagot. As a Psychologist we see and, understand things based on clinical observations pero iba pala kung ikaw na yung nandun. Bakit ang hirap gawin ng sa tingin ko ay tama? I often say to the people I consulted with to talk about it with their partners for better understanding and save the marriage pero bakit hindi ko magawa? I'm now a patient.