Torn in love (Union J)

Feelings

Tash

I am in love.

God, that sounds stupid coming from me, because I’m Tash Cuthbert, and I don’t do this love thing anymore.

But I am in love.

I know I am.

I can feel this…thing grabbing hold of my heart, twisting it with my emotions. I shouldn’t be feeling this. It’s just not right.

Like I said, I don’t do this love thing anymore.

But he’s beautiful, inside and out. Oh god, I sound like such a girly girl. And I’m not, by the way. I close my eyes, remembering the times that we have spent together. He’s my best friend, my bestest friend. To be honest, I’ve never really had a best friend, so even that is special. I trust him with a lot of things, and I guess he trusts me too, because he tells me about trouble with his ex, and things about his past. I even got so close to opening up to him about my past, but stupid Josh got in the way with his girlfriend Maryanne, and I wasn’t going to spill my past in front of them.

So I didn’t. I just stopped talking and walked away. I guess Josh got even angrier at me, because he hates me so much. It’s so obvious. It doesn’t even matter what I say or do, it’s the fact that I ran away that he hates me. He doesn’t like it when I do that. He doesn’t know he’s the reason. He thinks that I hate everyone. He thinks I don’t have the heart to love someone.

Well I do.

I’m in love.

No matter how many times I say it, it just doesn’t feel real. How will I know what it feels like when I’ve never been in love before?

Ok, that’s not strictly true, because I always swore that I was in love with Lewis Jackson. He was in my form at school, and the first day that I moved there, he befriended me. Or at least, he tried to. It was like one of those stories where the girl is best friends with the cute boy and then when they get older, they start dating. Except from the fact that I didn’t like him at all to begin with and that we were never friends. Well, after a few months of him pestering me, I finally agreed to be friends with him, just to shut him up. He was the best friend I ever could have wished for, and slowly he grew on me. Which then ended up with me falling in love with him and him asking me out only for him to then cheat on me two years later, where I promptly ended the relationship. That is one of the reasons why I don’t do relationships.

But I’m in love.

At least, I think I am.

I think I’m in love with George Shelley.

George

“Just do it.” I hear Liv hiss as I make my way towards Tessa’s room, “You’ve got nothing to lose.”

I peer through the crack in the door and see Tessa curled up on her bed, her head in her hands, “I can’t do it Liv.”

“Yes you can,” Liv says sharply, “You can, and you will.” She pauses for a second, “I’m going to find him, you two are going to sort out your differences and then you’re going to tell him, do you understand me?”

“Yes, Liv,” Tessa says weakly. I jump away from the door as I hear footsteps, and run down the corridor. I’m not looking where I’m going, so I run into someone, pushing both of us to the ground.

I glance down and see Tash lying on the floor, her caramel coloured hair draped around her body, “Tash, I’m so sorry.”

Tash grimaces and sits herself up, “It’s fine, George. It’s fine.”