Madness (Completed)

I Can't And I Won't

I walk towards a large building near the center of the town that most people know as a police station, however inside it looks like an office. Shane has his office in the nicest room of them all and I'm not afraid to go inside as many people are. I walk as quick as I can, however I have to slow down due to my body getting exhausted, even though I don't want to be. I stomp inside the building and wrap my bag around my shoulder instead of holding it awkwardly in my hands as I had been. I swing the door open with a large force that I normally wouldn't use, however I am in a bad mood and I need answers. I stomp towards the front desk and pound my fist on the counter.
"I'm here to see Shane, so let me in!" I shout angrily at the woman who sits behind the counter. She looks up from papers on her desk and looks me strait in the eye. Her eyes examine my face and they drop to my stomach, this happens every time. She looks me over and returns her eyes to look into mine. The woman nods and she grabs a small mic on her desk and presses the button.
"Shane, there is a woman here to see you." She says to it.
"Who is it?" His voice responds through the mic.
"Miss Violet, and she seems to really want to speak with you sir." The woman explains, her eyes still tracing my face which has an angry frown placed on it.
"Oh, send her in." Shane responds with a sigh before she sets down the mic. She nods to me and presses a button making a loud noise and the door cracks itself open for me. I nod back to her and step towards the door and open it the rest of the way and quickly get inside. I walk down the hall to the third door and let myself inside, slamming the door once I get inside.
"Okay, now tell me why the hell you decided that taking me out of that hospital was a good idea!" I shout as I sit down in a chair in front of Shane's desk with an angry huff come from my mouth.
"Calm down, I did it from a request." Shane states as he spins his chair to face me more directly.
"A request from who?" I spit the words at him in a fit of anger.
"Your friend, Jack." Shane states. My jaw drops at his explanation. Why on Earth would Jack keep me from seeing the guys and basically kick me out of there? It doesn't make any sense.
"What did he say to convince you that this was a good idea exactly?" I question, calmed down slightly with my thoughts running inside my head trying to understand.
"He told me about your engagement. So, firstly, congratulations-"
"What engagement?" I stagger the words from my mouth, interrupting Shane completely.
"With Jack, he said that the two of you are getting married. Is that not true? I scheduled the wedding just two hours ago." Shane explains. I gasp at his answer and lean my head on my arms and my arms on my weak legs. I shake my head and only look up to see Shane with his jaw dropped.
"He chose for me, he was just mad because I didn't agree." I mumble under my breath with anger and annoyance resonating inside of me.
"I can't cancel weddings, even if I wanted to. They have to clear areas and a team has already been sent to do that. They won't let me make their work for nothing, I'm so sorry Violet, I didn't know that he was lying." Shane says with complete honesty in his voice and a sorrow that I haven't heard from him.
"So what do I do? I'm not him right now, I'm just not ready for that right now." I state while running my fingers through my hair in an attempt to calm myself down.
"Well, you're going to have to marry someone. I'm not going to force someone else into marriage and I think you'd be mad if I did instead of you. I'm so sorry Violet, but I can't help you with this. All I can tell you is that you have to marry someone, it doesn't matter to me who it is as long as you are involved in this wedding." Shane states sternly with a heavy sigh escaping his mouth. I nod my head and try to wrap my mind around the idea that I'm getting married.
"I'm gonna go talk to him. I'll see you later Shane, and I don't blame you. It wasn't your fault." I state as I stand from my seat and begin towards the door.
"Violet." Shane calls before I can leave the room.
"Yeah?" I question, turning my head to face him once more.
"I really am sorry, also I can see that knife in your boot. You know the rule and I'll only let it slide today, so put it away. It's safe here, you don't need that protection inside the walls." Shane declares in a stern tone. I nod my head and walk out of the room, gently closing the door behind me. I then start back towards my new home to have a conversation with the man who did this.

Once I arrive at my house, I slowly walk towards the door. Even though I feel eager to speak to Jack, but I'm nervous at the same time. I sigh off my nerves and turn the handle on the door, it's unlocked. I open the door and step inside to see the lights on and everything looking nice and it seemed fancier than when I was inside before.
"Hey Violet, I didn't think you'd be back so soon." Jack says as he approaches me, setting down a plate on a counter. I examine him as he walks towards me with his bright smile placed on his face. He goes to hug me, but I put my hand up to stop him. Is he joking or something?
"What's wrong? Did something happen at the hospital? They're all okay, right?" Jack questions with his smile fading and a worried expression going to his face.
"Yeah, but Emmet's getting surgery. But that's not what I'm worried about right now, why did you schedule a wedding for us?" I question in confusion, looking right into Jacks bright blue eyes that show his usual personality. Jack loses his smile completely and a look of shame goes on his face as his head drops to stare at the ground.
"I didn't want to lose you and that's all I could think to do to make that happen." Jack says sadly.
"Why would you think that? I can't cancel this and I don't even know what I'm going to do. What am I supposed to tell everyone?" I question angrily and in shock.
"I talked to Mark last night. You were asleep and we talked, he told me to do this. He said that you wanted it and that it would be best for all of us. He said that he wouldn't be mad and that we could have a happy life toegther." Jack explains, his eyes finally lifting from the floor to stare into mine.
"Jack..." I start with a heavy sigh, "I can't have a happy life with you doing things behind my back. I can't have a happy life with you and Mark making deals with each other on who can live with me. That is my decision and neither of you get to make it for me, that is what would give me a happy life. Not this, not any of this." I explain with a heavy sigh cone that I didn't want to come.
"But, I want you to have a good life that you can be happy with for a long term. I didn't mean to offend you, not at all." Jack tries to help the situation, but fails and goes on about how he didn't mean it that way and other useless comments. I decide yo interrupt his ramblings while I still can.
"I'm sorry Jack, but I need to plan a wedding and explain to everyone else what is happening. I'll see you later." I say ad I turn on my heal and walk towards the door. I put my fingertips on the door, deciding if I really do want to go and I just turn the handle. I guess I really do hate doubting myself in situations like these. I shake my head as I walk outside. This is going to be an interesting conversation, but, then again, what isn't in my life these days?