Madness (Completed)

Bonds

My legs can't hold my weight sometimes, right now especially. It feels like I've gained 30 pounds just standing here, that's how my stress makes me feel. I decide that my weak legs shouldn't suffer anymore so I drop to my knees. I crawl towards the wall and lean against it, finally letting myself sit down to relax. I close my eyes and just lean against the wall.
"Violet! Where have you been? I've been looking everywhere for you." I hear Shane's voice call for me and his footsteps echo towards me.
"I've been here." I respond, not even opening my eyes when I do. I hear Shane stop and sit down next to me.
"Are you okay? Was it the reporter? He had no right to ask you those questions, I can make that newspaper never come out if you want. He said he was going to publish it and say some stupid crap about you." Shane says in an angered voice.
"No, don't do that. I can handle some stupid people saying shit about me. I mean, I've never really cared what people think of me anyway." I respond in an emotionless voice.
"Okay, but what really happened out there? I know you well enough to know that you're not just tired. If you were tired you wouldn't just collapse. Dr. Garret said that it looked like you fainted and I asked why that could be. Well, he said that you've been very stressed lately and too much stress and do those things." Shane says. I open my eyes and let them trail to look at him.
"Yeah, I've been stressed, what's so important about that?" I ask in a slightly snappy and annoyed tone.
"Why have you been so stressed?" He questions curiously. I decide that responding would just be a waste of time at this point. "You can talk to me, Violet." Shane adds in a tone that almost sounds comforting to me. I suppose that I should find a type of comfort with him, considering that he is my future husband.

"Last night Mark and I broke up and it was really rough on both of us. We both cried and I really didn't get much sleep because of it. Mark and I haven't talked since then and he was in the crowd just now. And..." I trail into my thoughts, just picturing his face when I had saw him.

"Yeah?" Shane questions, becoming me to continue.

"His face was red, meaning he was crying not too long ago. And when he looked at me... He never looked at me like that before, he was so mad and just seeing him that way stressed me out a lot." I explain, at least I didn't lie about all of it. The only thing I truly lied about was that it stressed me, it actually scared me more than anything else.

"If you need to talk with him, I can schedule something for you. And don't worry about the media, if they ask you anything that you don't want to answer, tell them this. Say that you are either going to the hospital to have an emergency check up for the baby, or ask their name and then tell them that I'm going to kick them out of here if they don't stop, and I will if you tell me to." Shane says to me sternly. "I can do anything you want me to, all you have to do is tell me and you will be living like a queen. I want you to be happy with me, even if it's just a friendship. It's just the public image that we have to maintain. Hey, you can even have a boyfriend living in my house if you want. It truly will not bother me, firstly because I'm not home often, secondly, because it will make you happy." Shane explains as his fingers slowly reach towards mine. I look up into his eyes, pale green, almost the same as mine, but much brighter. I turn to face my hand sitting on the cold tile next to Shane's. I move my fingers slightly to that they match up together. They fit almost perfectly, just like you always see in movies. I always thought that those were all fantasies and just made in Hollywood, but sometimes... You get surprised on what you see in life, some moments can be perfect and everything you dreamed, everything you wished you had comes to life. It's moments like these that show me that. I slowly move my fingers until both of ours are intertwined in a lovely way that is both fun and amazing to see and feel. I turn my head back to see Shane and I just smile. I'm not sure why, but it feels right. While I examine the details of his face, a thought crosses my mind all of a sudden.
"We should kiss at least once before our wedding, don't you think?" I ask as I inch my body closer to him in an attempt to not seem so distant.
"Yeah, definitely. But first, I only have one question for you. What style of kiss would you like our first to be?" He questions politely.
"Uh, what styles do you do?" I question in return in a slightly seductive manner.
"Any kind you want." He answers me, keeping his eyes locked onto mine.
"Well, we should probably start slow and see where it goes from there." I answer. Shane nods and suddenly grabs me by my waist and carries me so I sit atop his waist and upper thigh.
"Ready?" He questions me as his hand moves up from my waist and to my cheek where he holds me lovingly.
"Always." I answer with a small smirk covering my face. Shane chuckles slightly at my answer and leans towards me with our lips connecting.

Almost instantly, it becomes obvious that he is sweet. Shane grabs the back of my neck and massages it with his fingers. His other hand trails, still holding mine, to his shoulder where he leaves mine. We hold each other happily until I let myself let go of him. We release from one another and I stare at his eyes in a small amount of awe.

***

"It was very sweet Maddie." I say, almost out of breath.
"Well, it seems like you picked a good one." Maddie chuckles.
"You picked a good one too, don't worry, I'll let you see what I got one day." Emmet chuckles as he kisses Maddie and walks back into the kitchen to continue cooking dinner.
"Don't worry, one day I'll let you sleep on the same side of the bed as me." Maddie answers him with a smirk on her face.
"I looks forward to that,and I'm sure you do too." Emmet chuckles back to her.
"You know it." Maddie responds with a small giggle. "Anyways, tell me more about all this. Specifically, what happened when Jack found you off stage?" Maddie asks with her eyebrows raising and her giggling like a child.
"He hugged me and we talked a few things over." I say casually.
"How close did he hug you?" She asks me further.
"What?" I chuckle.
"Was it a friendly hug, or a... 'Ooh it's sexy time!' Hug?" Maddie questions excitedly.
"Oh my god. It was 'well, I'm about to cry so I need to hug someone' kind of hug. Then it turned into 'whine about my ex' kind of hug. Then in the end, it was a 'I'm sorry I didn't marry you, but I still love you' hug. Then he told me that all he really wanted was to marry me and that I didn't love him anymore." I say, with my eyes avoiding to look at Maddie's.
"Well, it's been a long day for you then, hasn't it?" Maddie chuckles.
"One of the longest." I chuckle back to her.
"You should talk to him." Maddie says after a small period of silence. I feed her a confused look and all she does is nod.
"Who?" I ask for clarification.
"Mark. You need to explain why you did everything you did. It will be good closure for both of you, and it will make everything a lot better between you both." Maddie says.
"I don't think he wants to see me right now, and I don't want to push him right now." I say in a slightly nervous tone that expresses my thoughts.
"C'mon! You're hiding here just to get away from him! Just go back and talk things over with him, trust me, it will make it better." Maddie says in a sincere and kind voice.
"Fine. I'll tell you what happens when I see you." I say as I stand fronbthe couch and go towards the door.
"Okay. Good luck!" Maddie says with a chuckle.
"Thanks, see ya Maddie. And nice to see you're back on your feet Emmet!" I shout so that they both can hear me.
"Thanks, see you!" Emmet says happily.
"See ya Violet!" Maddie shouts back as I open the door and step outside.