Madness (Completed)

Excitement

*Five Days Later*

The day is finally here, I can't wait. Since yesterday I have been so excited and ready for what I'm going to do. I lace up my combat boots and shove a dagger in the edge as I always do, even though it is technically against the rules. But I'm not going to follow rules that risk my safety, sorry, but that is a fact. I walk outside with a jump in my step as I start towards the hospital. Even though I get tired easily, today I am allowed to be excited and if I want to jump I'm going to no matter what people tell me.
"Violet! Wait up!" I hear the familiar voice of Jack shout at me excitedly, after all, he knows too what happens today. I stop in my tracks to wait for him and he finally catches up to me breathing heavily from running after me.
"When I imagined us breathing heavily together, this is not how I imagined it." Jack comments with a smirk covering his face at his dumb joke. I shake my head and lightly hit his arm in a jokingly way.

"Ow, I'm gonna have to go back to the hospital from all this abuse." Jack chuckles to me as we both start walking this time so that he can catch his breath entirely.
"It wasn't even that bad." I say as I roll my eyes and look towards Jack. He has always looked and acted much younger than he is when he laughs and jokes about things, and there it is, his little kid grin that is spread across his face.
"So, I haven't heard you talk about the wedding in a while... were you able to call it off, or what happened?" Jack questions, his childishness vanishing from his face with a more serious expression appearing in it's place.
"No, I'm still deciding a few things. I don't want to bring the mood down too much so I try to forget about it around people so that I'm my happy self." I explain with a heavy sigh, followed by a smile that I force myself to put on.
"Don't worry about it too much, everything will work out in the end. And I really am sorry for making this mess for you, I didn't mean for it to then out this way." Jack explains with a sweet comforting smile on his face. We continue to walk down the street with Jack in complete silence, but that doesn't bother me. I always think best in silence and I enjoy the quiet, in a way it is so peaceful and calming to just hear the silence of it all.

Jack and I finally arrive at the hospital only minutes later as I think my speed increased in excitement along the way. I walk up to the front desk with Jack and look over at the woman behind it.
"How may I help you?" She questions politely, making eye contact with me, and I'm guessing, recognizing me as most people do in the compound.
"We are here to discharge some patients here." I respond even though I see Jack seem eager to speak, I do before him. I guess it's because I feel like I have more power here than he does, but I'm not sure if I truly believe that.
"Oh, the four that were rescued?" The woman questions me to clarify as she grabs a paper on her counter that reads 'Discharge' in bold letters on the top.
"Yeah, and I already have the paperwork for it. I'm sure these will be enough." I say as I place the documents on the desk in front of her. Her eyes gloss it lightly and her eyes widen once they get near the bottom on the document. I don't think that these people see many documents signed by Shane come in here often, and like I said, I'm sure they will be enough.
"Okay, go on ahead and get them. I'll tell the nurses that they are being discharged for you Miss Violet." The woman says with a sweet smile that she puts on her face, even if it looks forced. I nod my head in response and open the door once she hits the button for me. I walk along the hallway with Jack close behind me. We finally get to the first door that we need with the label "Mark F." on it. I turn back to look Jack in his bright blue eyes before I say anything else.
"I'll can get him if you want. I know you haven't talked to him since everything happened..." Jack offers sweetly. I shake my head lightly and sigh at his statement.
"I actually have to talk to him and Wade. Can you get Bob and Emmet?" I question, my eyes almost getting lost in the ocean blue eyes of his.
"Yeah, sure. If you need anything, you know where to find me." Jack says in almost a whisper as he brushes passed me as he walks towards the other rooms. I sigh heavily and nod my head, I do need to talk to Mark even if I don't want to, even if I've been avoiding it for a few days now. I'm not sure why, but every time I think about him now it just hurts, really badly. After all, I went home after I talked to Mark and I saw Jack in my house packing his things. I had ran up to him in distress and I just laid with him on the couch, completely forgetting Marks promises. In a way it feels like I betrayed him and that thinking always leads me to believe that he would be better off without me. So that's what I did. I visited all the other guys and I explained it to them all, except Emmet who came out of surgery and woke up yesterday. And as soon as I found out Maddie had ran in the room and I don't know if she has left yet, I doubt it though. All of them told me the same thing, that it is my choice and that I need to make it soon. I hate that they're right and I hate that I'm in this situation, but what I hate even more is that I haven't seen Mark in so long. Even though I'm mad at myself for avoiding Mark, I don't know what I would have to say and now I will have even more to explain. Oh, well, that's my life I guess. I sigh away my nerves and grab the doorknob before I start thinking again. I turn it in my hand and walk inside the door, closing it gently behind me in a hope that if Mark is asleep, he'll stay that way.
"Hey, I didn't expect it to be you." I hear his voice when I enter. I take in a deep breath and finally turn to face him, he looks much better, most of his bruises are gone and his voice sounds stronger like it used to.
"I didn't expect to be here honestly." I respond with a small chuckle under my breath. I walk towards his bed and sit next to him casually as if I had saw him yesterday, but we all know that I hadn't.
"I heard that I was being discharged today, is that why you're here?" Mark questions me sweetly in a tone that I love and have missed hearing.
"Yeah, I'm supposed to help you up and to get you to your new house, which happens to be in one of my spare rooms."I say with a small smile that I just hope looks realistic.
"And what does that mean exactly?" Mark questions in a tone that sounds full of disappointment.
"What do you mean? It mean that you can stay in my house until you get one of your own. If you want I can give you one, anyone you want. All you have to do is tell me." I state as I take in more air to help me to be strong in this situation.
"You chose then, I have to say, I didn't think you would so fast, but if you're happy then-"
"I didn't choose. I kicked Jack out too. He lives down the street from me, there's another house near mine if you want it, I can get it for you." I explain, as I stare into Marks eyes that shine so bright with the hospital lights hanging above us.
"You should choose him. He'll be a better person for you than I ever could be." Mark says in a mumble as if he says it to himself. I shaky my head in annoyance and look away from him and at the wall behind me.
"How do you know?" I snap. I don't know why I say it or why I get so angry, I guess it is because Mark has told me this so many times and I'm tired of hearing it.
"Because I know you and I know myself. I know that you've avoided me for the last few days and that you are still mad at Jack for whatever reason. Please just choose him, he is the right choice for you and I think we both know it." Mark states with a heavy sigh escaping his voice. I shake my head again and avoid looking towards Mark as if his existence is the thing annoying me.
"You don't realize how wrong you are..." I mumbler under my breath, just loud enough so that Mark can hear me.
"Then explain to me, what is it that makes me so good to you?" Mark questions, more calmly this time. I let my eyes wander back to look at Mark and I stare into his eyes in a way that would seem threatening, but that's not how I mean it to be.
"Because you actually understand me, you've been there for me when I needed someone. Do you think that Jack and I have even had half as many conversations about serious things like you and I have? Jack is like a little kid, he has moments when he is romantic and amazing and I love that about him, but we actually have something. You have been my shoulder to cry on, the father of my child, the man I wanted to die with, the only person I felt safe with, the list goes on and on for why you're good for me. I just don't know how you can't see that." I say as a tear rolls down my cheek. The words echo in my mind and makes the memories flow inside me even more. "I just don't know how you can't see that" I hear myself say once more inside my mind as another tear falls from my eye.
"Then why do you always leave me when I need you?" Mark questions with his voice cracking and a tear falling down his cheek.
"When did I do that?" I question in confusion. Mark scoffs and shakes his head at me.
"The first time you ran away and you told me that you loved me. I needed you to be with us, I had just got you back from wherever they took you and then you just left. Another time was when we were trapped in that car, you avoided me and basically left me alone afterwards. You just ran to Jack as a shoulder to cry on and let me believe that you didn't care anymore and that everything we went through meant nothing. Then, most recently, when I was lying in my hospital bed alone, just waiting for anyone to walk through the door to help me, where were you? Nowhere near me, and that's all I know. The only person who came in this room to help me was Jack, he told me that you were mad at him and me and that all we could do is wait. I still don't know what you thought, but I needed you Violet, and you left me. You leave me time after time after time and I don't know why,but every time it's when I need someone. I've always been there when you need me, so why aren't you?" Mark questions, now with tears flooding his cheeks and his eyes being bright red from the stress building inside him.
"That's why you want me to choose Jack, so that you don't get hurt again. You don't care about my happiness, all you care is about is that you won't be the one hurt anymore!" I say in anger as more tears start to come from my eyes and drip onto my hands.
"I have a right to, and I truly do think you'll be better off with Jack. We both know that I'm not cut out to be a father, especially if their mother runs away every other weekend." Mark says coldly with the sadness in his eyes being replaced with bursts of anger.