Hi hello.
Sorry for not being active lately, I'm in a sort of bad place right now, I just have a lot on my mind.
I promise I'll try and update soon, possibly tonight, but idk.
Can I just take a second to talk? You don't have to read this at all btw, I just need somewhere to say this shit.
So, I think I may be pansexual, but I have no idea how to come out or anything. I know it shouldn't be as hard as coming out as a lesbian, but I'm fucking terrified of what people will think. I know a lot of people don't even know what pansexual is, or that they think it doesn't exist, or that people say 'it's just a phase' or that I'm just a 'wanna be bisexual'. This is another thing, I'm scared that I come out then realise I'm only like panromantic or something then I have to do it all again. I've already accidentally came out to one person. But apart from them and now anyone reading this, nobody knows, unless she's told people.
How I accidentally did it was this:
We were sitting on the bus home from town. Randomly, she turns to me and asks me.
"Would you ever go out with a girl?"
I just need to tell someone. I didn't want to lie to her either.
So, quietly, I told her yes.
"Really?"
She seemed hella surprised.
That's when I explained that I think I may be pansexual.
It makes me happy how she took it though.
She just smiled and said "that's really sweet."
I'm most scared to tell my parents because they haven't really shown the best attitude towards the lgbtq+ community.
Like, last night, I was almost screaming at them for using the word 'tranny'.
I'm just.
Gah,
I'm so frustrated right now because I want to i need to tell someone, but I'm fucking terrified to.
I'm scared of all the 'lads' at my school as well, because they already hate me for defending transgender people and attempting to explain the difference between 'sex' and 'gender' to them when they were being ignorant assholes. I have a friend who's pansexual, so I've helped some people explain what pansexual is before, but everybody still says. "So she's bisexual?"
Gah.
I feel good for typing all that, even though I'm about to delete half of it.
I'll let you leave now.
I'll try and update to story tonight, but idk if I can.
Bye lads.
~Noonpad~
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