What is love?

I'm just so confused

"Oh sweetie it's okay" the doctor said while rubbing my back. It was the most painful cry I have ever done. I just sat there crying for no reason. "Honey would you like me to go get your friends?" She asked me. I stopped crying and gave her a wtf bitch look. "They're here?!" I yelled. "Yes" she answered calmly. "How long have they been here for?!" I yelled again. "They have been here for about three hours." She answered calmly. "Three hours!" I yelled. I stood up and started to cry. "Now Ms Jenson calm down." She said putting her hand on my shoulder. "Don't tell me what to do bitch!" I screamed while pushing her hand off my shoulder. I stood there just crying then I lost feeling in my legs and fell to the floor. "Ms. Jenson are you okay?"
She asked while rushing over to my side. I didn't answer I just cried. She called for help and they rushed in and helped me onto the bed. "I'm okay! I'm fine! Just leave me alone! I wanna go home!" I screamed. "Honey what do you mean by that?" She asked. Then out of no where a nurse called for the Gunnarsen's and in they came. Samantha stood there with Marcus's arm around her trying to comfort her. Emma looking pale with worry. Their parents standing there with a few tears running down there faces. Camryn was holding Cara and they were crying together. And then I saw Martinus. He was all beat up, his eyes were all red and he wouldn't stop crying and he looked scared. Of me being hurt. "I want every thing to go back to the way it used to be! When I was little! Where I wasn't scared or hurt! When I had a good life!" I stood up I pulled all the needles and tubes going into my arm out. I headed for the door until Martinus blocked me. "Move Martinus!" I screamed. "I-I can't!" He yelled back. "Fine!" I yelled "I guess I'll have to do it myself!" I pushed him out of my way and ran down the hall and out the door. "Callista!" Martinus yelled. "What the hell do you want!" I yelled. "You ruined my life! I have no parents now and it's all because of you! I'm gonna go bail them out of jail right now!" I screamed. "I can't let you!" He yelled while grabbing my hand. I yanked my hand out of his grip. "Why do you care for me so much!" I yelled. "You know what I don't want to hear your answer!" I screamed. "Just leave me alone!" I screamed while pushing him. Then he did something that I never thought Martinus was capable of... he hit me. I stopped. I looked at him he looked confused of what he just did. "You monster!" I screamed and then I ran as far as my legs could carry me. I headed towards the police office but then I stopped and went to the park. I sat down on a bench and cried. I cried for about an hour and then I went back to the hospital. The lady at the front desk looked up at me I looked at her and then looked away and headed towards my room until someone pulled me back and pressed me against the wall. "What the hell did you do to Martinus!" Marcus yelled at me. "Let me go!" I yelled. "What did you do to Martinus!" He repeated. "I just yelled at him and then I pushed him! But then he hit me and I ran away! You happy now!" I screamed. "Wow I thought you actually cared for him!" He sighed. "What do you mean by that!" I yelled. "You pushed him and yelled at him and you don't seem to care that you hurt him! Ever since you walked out of this hospital he's been crying and he constantly keeps going to the bathroom and he comes back with his sleeves rolled down! I'm worried while you don't even care!" He yelled pushing me harder against the wall. I cried and fell to the floor. "I do care i just don't show! I have cared so much for him ever since I laid my eyes on him! I'm just so confused of how much I care for him! I know you like Samantha and I know Samantha likes you it's so easy for you two! But for me nobody has ever shown me love or all that shit! I'm just confused! My emotions have been an emotional rollercoaster and I just can't take all this getting angry and yelling at me! So can I just go through one thing at a time please!" I screamed. Marcus just nodded and hugged me. I headed back to my hospital room crawled into bed pulled my knees up to my chest and silently cried myself to sleep.

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Should I keep writing?