Masarap Ang Bawal: If Ever

Chapter 34 (Hotel)

Chapter 34

Hotel

"Nakakasabay mo pa ba si Tammy kapag pumapasok?," tanong ko kay Rhum habang pinapanood sila Nohlan na piliting kunin iyong Teddy Bear na gusto ni Saida.Speaking of which,hindi ko inaasahang tatagal silang dalawa.

Nagkaayaan ang buong barkada para pumunta sa Tom's World at katulad ng dati,hindi na naman naglaro si Rhum.She preferred watching them and I chose to accompany her.

"Oo.Minsan," she answered.

"Nag-uusap kayo?,"

"Oo naman,"

" Kanina nakasabay mo?,"

"Oo,"

"Anong pinag-usapan ninyo?," I curiously asked.More on phishing for some pieces of information.

"W-wala naman. Casual talks lang," sagot niya. Hindi nakalagpas sa pandinig ko ang pagbuhol ng kanyang dila.Not a good liar.Lihim akong napangisi nang mapait.

It's either there's something that she chose not to tell me or she's got a question she would like to ask only she decided not to.

"You know you don't have to restrict yourself from asking questions," I stated giving her the chance to ask me about what's bothering her.

She smiled for a second and  looked  straight into my eyes and asked. "Do you still love her?".

Wala sa sariling namulsa ako at napayuko dahil sa tanong niya.Nagsisi kung bakit hinayaan ko siyang magtanong.Masyadong diretso.Hindi ako nakaiwas doon ah!Napangisi ako sa pagiging direkta niya.

"Tito boy ikaw ba 'yan?," imbes na sumagot ay biniro ko pa siya.

"Ewan ko sayo," sagot niya at ibinalik na ang tingin sa mga kaibigan namin na tuwang-tuwa sa paghila n'ung ticket na lumalabas mula sa machine na pinaglaruan nila.

Napangiti ako nang mapansing nakanguso siya.She must have been expecting a serious answer from me.Kunsabagay,answering her won't hurt.

"It still hurts every time I see her especially when she's with her boyfriend," tulala akong nagsasalita at sa sahig lang nakatingin.That's what I really feel.

"Maybe it has something to do with your ego. Baka kasi 'di mo pa rin matanggap na she's moved on and you're not," darn,she hit some button.And I couldn't help but smile a bitter one.I really could not say that she's all correct but she really put some sense with what I felt.

"Maybe yes,maybe no." I replied tasting bitternes in it.

"Well, if you still love her why don't you win her back?," she suggested innocently.

"That's not easy," I answered.

" 'Kung asawa nga naaagaw,girlfriend pa ba?'. I always hear you guys say that quote or whatever that is. Bakit 'di mo iapply?," it sounded more of a challenge than a question.

"Sabi ko nga, it's not that easy,Rhum. Sabi-sabi lang namin iyon pero nasa inyo paring mga babae kung magpapaagaw ba kayo o hindi," I told her.Nakita kong tumango-tango siya at mukhang sinang-ayunan niya iyon dahil wala na akong narinig na rebuttal pa mula sa kanya.

"You know very well that when everything seems falling and you can't bear the pain we are here for you,ayt?," napangiti ako sa sinabi niya.I was expecting she would give me more advices.Iyon kasi ang kadalasan eh.Sa tuwing mag-oopen up ka,advice agad ang binibigay sa'yo.Hindi ba pwedeng makinig lang? Just like what Rhum did.

"Thanks," I sincerely said.

"Wala iyon. Kaibigan tayo eh. Nagdadamayan," nakangiti niyang sabi.Her dimples showed.