My Scream Into the Void

An Anxious Soul

I have to make up my mind, but that means confronting my options, which means realizing I might make a mistake, which means I'm going to feel stupid, which makes me feel like a lesser human being, which reminds me I'm dependent, which reminds me why my mom wants me to go, which reminds me of my plans, which reminds me of my decision, which makes me feel anxious.

I don't want to be anxious.