Love Me (Completed)

Chapter 25 - Everyday

Hindi na ako gumawa ng excuse nung gustong magkita ng barkada since I was thinking of introducing David to them as well. I might be broken hearted but I never let it show especially to my friends. Sulking isn't really my style and I think I had enough of that.

Nalaman na rin nila ang nangyari na wala nang something sa amin. Hindi ko alam kung alam ba nila ang rason basta ang alam nila it's over.

Of course hanging out with them also means seeing him. Wala rin naman akong choice dahil iisa lang ang circle of friends namin. Apparently my friends consists of Flynne, his cousin, my best friend which is also his friend, and his other friends from high school.

Hindi naman pwedeng pag kasama ako ay hindi siya kasama and vice versa. We have to suck it up.

Flynne doesn't approve of me bringing David dahil baka daw magkagulo. Deep inside iniisip ko na hindi naman mangyayari 'yun dahil siya nga dinala pa niya sa apartment niya.

Though hindi makarelate si David, I made sure that he doesn't feel out of place. And thank God hindi siya 'yung tipong mahiyain seeing ang daldal niya nung unang beses namin magkita. May men's talk na nga na nagaganap sa kanila ni Liam.

And I'm also glad Liam is here because I have a sense that Sebastian hates him already. Kanina ko pa napapansin ang tingin niya kay David like he is challenging him into some childish staring contest.

Hindi ko alam kung hindi lang ba siya pinapansin ni David or hindi niya talaga napapansin. I don't wanna know.

Occasionally nagcocomment si Sebastian o may sinasabi or magpapatawa like he always do pero this time hindi ko siya masyado pinapansin. I mean it when I say I want to stay away.

"Okay. Trivia: did you know queen bee 'yan si Viktoria nung high school kami?" Sinabi ni Flynne kay David.

David shot me a look. Tinignan ko rin siya like saying isn't it obvious?

"Yeah. It's quite obvious." He laughed. I elbowed him to shut him up.

"Wag ka nga. Sinabi sa akin ng friends mo na bully ka or nakalimutan mo na?" I retort.

"You met his friends?" That comment was from Sebastian which I didn't have to answer as Liam joined the conversation.

"Bagay pala kayo. She actually bullied my girlfriend."

"So pinagtutulungan niyo ako? Thanks Liam."

"Worrying you'll be on my bad side?" Tumaas ang kilay ni David and I think what I saw is amusement.

So natutuwa siya sa situation ngayon? He is definitely a bully.

"Well.. That depends if you'd still like me when that happens."

Joking with David is so easy. Easy because we both know we're not serious. Unlike with Sebastian that it's always half truth.

From the corner of my eye I saw Sebastian's mouth set into a thin line.

"And after hearing stories from your friends, ikaw ata dapat ang magalala." I retort.

Nagaasaran pa kaming dalawa at tumigil lang ako nung tumayo si Sebastian at lumabas. For a moment akala ko umuwi na siya pero nasa mesa pa rin ang wallet at phone niya.

Nagkatinginan kami ni Flynne. She bit her lip and looked at her cousin and me then I just knew I needed to follow him.

Naabutan ko siya sa may labas ng bar. Tumayo ako sa tabi niya. Nilingon niya ako pero hindi siya nagsalita.

"Are you okay?"

"Okay ba tayo? I thought after last time we saw each other okay na tayo?" He asked without looking at me.

"Yes."

"Really because you're not talking to me."

I swallowed hard. Maybe we could still be friends at gusto ko rin na bumalik na kami sa dati so I said, "Magkaibigan tayo bakit naman kita hindi kakausapin?"

Alam kong may gusto siyang sabihin pero hindi niya sinabi. That's the problem with him. He keeps his thoughts to himself. He never shares, and when he did sobrang konti lang ng isheshare niya. We're close but there's still so much I don't know about him.

"Of course." He chuckled. "Papahangin lang ako. Sunod ako."

I gave him a small smile before heading back inside.

Now I feel bad about how I treated him. Alam ko naman na walang kasalanan si Sebastian. None of this is his fault. Ako lang naman ang umasa. Ako lang ang nagexpect ng something sa kanya kaya dapat hindi ako nagkakaganito.

Magkaibigan kami. I shouldn't let this come between us. I couldn't lose him as my friend too.

So when he came back I made sure to smile and let him join the conversation. I know I can't shut him out completely. That's unfair even for Sebastian so I buried my feelings deep and those feelings will remain there until I forget about them.

xx

"Bakit?" I asked as I noticed na kanina pa ako sinusulyapan ni David.

"Are you okay?"

Kumunot ang noo ko sa kanya but I nodded as an answer.

Akala ko hindi na siya magtatanong ulit dahil nagmamaneho siya pero maya maya nagtanong siya ulit. "Sebastian. You like him right?"

Balak ko sanang ideny kaya lang sobrang obvious na ata lalo na nung nakita ko ang reaction ni David sa pagbalik ko.

"An ex? What happened?"

"Not an ex." Umiling ako. "No. We just had something going on. I don't know pero diba mas okay 'yun? I mean with our parents and all."

"I don't think I'm the one you ask for relationship advice."

"You're the only one who can understand what it's like. You know, he made it easier for us. It ended before we could actually start so I supposed I'm okay." I don't know if I'm trying to convince him or myself but I nodded.

Matagal niya akong tinignan but he shrugged and resumed driving.

"Do you still love her?" I blurted.

The car swayed a little and he cleared his throat. He looks uncomfortable by the mention of his ex.

"Sorry, you don't have to answer that." I added.

He was silent for a long time so I thought he's not going to answer but he did. "Yes. Everyday."

Pumikit ako. Everyday. I miss Sebastian everyday too.

We are more alike than I thought.