Love Me (Completed)

Chapter 29 - Over

He had asked for another chance at sinabi kong pagiisipan ko.

I don't know if I should give it a shot. What he is asking from me is hard. I'm not sure if I want to give my heart again to him. Paano kung masaktan nanaman ako at paano kung this time hindi ko na kayang pulutin ang sarili ko?

Nagsisimula na ako sa office namin at hindi tumatanggap ng failure si Papa. Sabi niya itry ko lang but I know what he wanted to say was do not fail.

Since I was young I never failed my parents and I will not now. Hindi ko na muna iisipin ang mga bagay na may kinalaman may Sebastian.

Pumapasok na rin siya sa school so we both have reasons not to see each other. That's good.

Ang hindi ko lang maintindihan kung seryoso ba siya because he never asked me again after he said he wanted another chance. I'm giving it a thought and it just complicate things more.

Maybe we could just stay like this. Liam and Flynne broke up before and after years they got back together because they realized that they still love each other.

And their relationship now is so much stronger and happier. I've never seen Liam so happy after they got back. Naisip ko na siguro kailangan namin ni Sebastian 'yun. If he really do love me then maybe we could have that someday. Not now but I'm hoping someday.

Hindi ko alam kung anong schedule niya this semester pero wala pang tao sa apartment niya kaya sa labas ako naghintay.

Kanina pa ako at sigurado akong pagagalitan ako ni Papa pag nalaman niyang nagskip ako sa office para dito pero kailangan ko nang sabihin bago pa magbago ang isip ko at umatras ang tapang ko.

After another 10 minutes bago siya dumating.

"Viktoria? Anong--"

"Pinagisipan ko 'yung about sa chance." I started.

"Let's talk inside."

Umiling ako. "And I'm sorry. I can't. With work and you. I don't want to disappoint Papa, alam mo 'yun at ayaw ko ng may ibang iniisip. And you're still studying and last year mo na so you need to focus. Hindi pa ako ready, Sebastian."

Tahimik lang siya but in the end he just nodded before he went inside. I was left to think if he's upset.

Siya 'yung tipo na hindi makikipagtalo kung alam niyang hindi siya mananalo o ayaw niyang pagusapan ang isang bagay. Sanay na ako pag ganyan siya at ako nalang ang lumalayo at pinapalipas ko muna ng ilang araw bago ko siya ulit tanungin.

Kilala ko siya at alam kong okay lang siya pero hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko nang kinatok ko ang apartment niya.

"That's it? Wala kang sasabihin?"

"What do you want me to say?"

"Just something." I wanted him to say anything. He can mock me or joke about it but not this.

"You've already decided. Ayaw kitang pilitin. You said you will give it a thought and you did." He shrugged.

"Bakit parang kasalanan ko pa?"

"Wala kang kasalanan."

"Then why are you being like this?" I asked. I don't want the silent treatment. It's killing me. I needed to know his thoughts.

"Because I can't do anything about it!" He shouted and sighed. "So I chose to accept it."

"You can but you always choose wrong. In the first place you're the reason why we're like this now. You didn't choose me so now that I did the same to you, you're upset? Anong gusto mong gawin ko?" Sigaw ko rin.