Love Me (Completed)

Chapter 12 - Always

Umuwi akong nadatnan si Sebastian sa tapat ng bahay. Hindi pa niya ako muna nakita dahil nakatalikod siya. Pinagisipan ko pa kung lalapitan ko ba siya o iiwan sa labas pero sinabi ko sa sarili ko na pag siya mismo ang naginitiate ay kakausapin ko siya.

Sabi ni Liam ay palagi daw mainit ang ulo ni Sebastian nitong mga nakaraang araw so this affects him too.

"Naubos na mga friends mo na pwedeng humingi ng sorry para sayo?" I finally find my voice.

Pagharap niya ay nakita kong hindi siya nagshave.

"You shut them all down. You didn't give me another choice."

"They're not really that convincing."

His lips curved a little upward. "I came to say sorry. Alam kong palagi nalang ako nagsosorry sayo and trust me I didn't want that either pero hindi ko na kaya na iniiwasan mo ako."

"Iniiwasan kita kasi ayaw kitang kausapin. What makes you think kakausapin kita ngayon?"

"Sobrang dami ko nang nagawang kasalanan sayo. But I'm not perfect. We are not perfect. Minsan bago ko pa maisip na nasaktan na kita, I already did. I can't be perfect pero alam kong ayaw kita makitang nasasaktan. You're my closest friend and I can't let anyone hurt you. And she almost did. Because of me."

I took a step forward. "Kung 'yun ang inaalala mo, Sebastian, kaya ko ang sarili ko. And she won't do that. She's all talk. If she ever laid hands on me do you think hahayaan ko siya?"

"No. Alam kong kayang kaya mo siya. But I don't think I can stop myself if she hurt you."

"I won't let anyone touch me." I said but I'm not sure about that because it never happened. Pag may nakakaaway ako wala pa naman sa point na nagkasakitan kami physically.

What I know is once she touched me, all be damned. Hindi ko siya aatrasan.

"I know." He smiled. "As much as possible I want to prevent that before it happen. You know what that mouth of yours does with people."

Natawa ako dahil lahat ng kaibigan ko alam kung anong pwedeng lumabas sa small but terrible mouth ko.

"Kinaiinis ko lang is hindi niya tayo pinatapos maglaro. We were winning!" I said. "Kaya ko pang pigilan ang inis ko but she called you names. Names na hindi magandang pakinggan and you just let her."

"Do you prefer I call her names too? I can't even remember her name."

Napailing nalang ako dahil nahulaan ko na iyon. Mahina siya sa pagalala ng mga pangalan at isa sa hatest subject niya ang history.

"Okay lang tawagin niya ako ng kung ano ano but not you." He said and gently cupped my face. "Not you, Viktoria."

"Bitch? There are worse than that. Hindi naman ako naoffend."

His hand tighten around my jaw and he brought my face up to level with his. "You should. Wag mong hayaan na may tumawag sayo ng ganon."

Wala akong nagawa mung hindi tumango dahil nagbibiro lang naman ako pero sobrang seryoso siya.

"Then you should have asked her to stop. Why me? Napahiya ako Sebastian. Did you see her face?" Nilayo ko ang mukha ko.

"Because she will not listen to me. I asked her to leave after you left and I told her that if she ever say that to you again I will not think twice. You didn't see her face."

"I don't ever want to. She's an eyesore." Sabi ko at natawa siya.

Umalis siya sa pwesto niya at may kinuha sa loob ng kotse. Inabot niya sa akin ang isang bar ng dark chocolate. "Peace offering."

Tumaas lang ang kilay ko pero tinanggap ko iyon.

"Bati na ba tayo?"

"Hindi naman makapal ang mukha ko para tumanggap ng peace offering tapos hindi makikipagbati."

"Oo ka nalang. Dami mo pang sinasabi." Ngisi niya.

"Gusto mo bang magaway ulit tayo, Sebastian?"

He hands snaked around my waist and pulled me into a hug. "Sorry, Vikvik."

It's always so easy for me to forgive him like how it's so easy for me to love him.

I melted in his arms.

xx

I know friends aren't suppose to act like that to each other. I kissed Sebastian many times before and we hugged many times too pero walang ibig sabihin para sa amin iyon.

I don't know if I should start drawing a line since the last time that I kissed him.. well yup.

Pero hindi ko rin magawa dahil ang selfish side ko ay nageenjoy sa mga ginagawa niya. Sa tuwing yayakapin niya ako hindi ko naman rin siya matulak.

"Hindi ko alam, Viktoria. Kasi si Sebastian malambing talaga siya. He just look like a rock but he is very soft inside." Sabi ni Flynne.

"I know." I gave a knowing smile.

"Siya lang 'yung pinsan ko na niyayakap ako sa totoo lang. He just cares too much but he won't admit it ever."

What she means is normal lang talaga ang ginagawa ni Sebastian. Nadisappoint ako ng konti dahil akala ko pa naman medyo special ako.

Nagkabati kami before ng retreat namin and I asked him for a letter pero sinabi niyang hindi siya gagawa.

But I found his letter in my bag. He slid it there secretly and I just want to cry kasi sobrang natouch ako.

I kept it in my drawers along with the other letters pero ilang beses ko 'yun binasa bago tinago sa box.

Nagtatampo ka pa rin ba? I've been thinking what would be like five years from now? Close pa kaya tayo? Wala ka pa rin boyfriend dahil nambabasted ka pa rin?

I know you'd be successful because I know you and I know you don't give up easily. That's right. You don't ever give up.

But know that I won't give up too. Kung isang araw maisip mo na ayaw mo na ako maging kaibigan even after everything that we've been through, ngayon pa lang sinasabi ko na sayo that I won't give you up. I will always, always stay for you.

Alam kong kaya mo ang sarili mo at makikipagtalo ka pa sa akin and you might roll your eyes right now but just let me protect you. I will always be here for you because you're Viktoria. My Vikvik..

Happy retreat!

Kung hindi ko alam ang sulat kamay niya malamang iisipin kong pinagtritripan lang ako ng mga kaibigan ko pero sulat niya 'to.

I will always, always, always choose you too, Sebastian.