Love Me (Completed)

Chapter 28 - I Miss Us

Hindi ako bumalik ng kwarto pero nagtext ako kay David na puntahan ako. I just need someone with me right now.

Agad naman niya ako pinuntahan sa may pool. I just sat there with my feet dangled in the water enjoying the silence.

"What's wrong? Saan ka galing?" He sniffed. "Amoy alak ka."

"May party sa may dulo ng beach. Free drinks."

"And you went there alone?" Tumaas ang boses niya. "Paano kung may nangyari sayo? Uminom ka pa.."

"Because I want to be alone. Gusto kong mapagisa when he found me." He knows who I was talking about without mentioning the name.

"What happened?" Tinabihan niya ako.

"He said things and he..kissed me."

"What? Akala ko ba tapos na kayo? You let him kiss you?"

"It happened too fast and I.." My throat bobbed. "I still love him, David. Hindi ko na alam kung anong dapat kong gawin."

My sight is starting to get blurry. "Tell me what should I do?"

He exhaled at naramdaman ko nalang na sinandal niya ang ulo ko sa balikat niya. Doon ako nagsimula naiyak.

Hindi ako iyakin pero nitong mga nakaraang linggo parang ang babaw ng luha ko.

Hinayaan niya akong umiyak. Nababasa ko na ang t-shirt niya pero okay lang sa kanya. He didn't say anything, didn't ask questions too.

We just sat there quietly and he let me cry. Hindi niya ako pinigilan, he wanted me to cry all my frustrations out so I did. After that day at his apartment gusto ko nalang umiyak pero ayaw lumabas ng mga luha ko but now that I didn't want to ngayon sila lahat lumalabas.

And I can't stop. Lahat ng naipon na luha ay nilabas ko.

What did he mean when he said he doesn't want me to forget? First he don't want me now he suddenly want me.

Whatever game he is playing I can't play it. Hindi ko kayang makipaglaro sa kanya dahil hindi na kaya ng puso ko na masaktan ulit. It's too much. Akala ko gusto rin niya ako, he might be interested but he's also interested in others too and that I can't accept it because the moment he kissed me, I knew right then na siya lang ang gusto ko. No one else but him.

That's not the case for him though.

"One day you'll wake up and you'd know what to do. It's hard but it can be done." He said after some time.

Tumango ako. I just hope that day would come sooner. Ayaw ko nang masaktan. I just want this pain to go away. I want all my feelings for Sebastian to go away.

"Do you want to go home?"

Bukas pa ang uwi namin and I don't want to spoil the fun. They will know there's something wrong once na umuwi ako. Umiling ako.

We stayed until late. Sinusubukan niya akong patawanin and I threaten to throw him in the pool.

Pumayag lang siya na bumalik ako nung nakita niyang medyo okay na ang pakiramdam ko.

"Thank you. I didn't know you would come. I was ready to cry alone."

"Hindi man tayo matagal magkakilala but let me tell you this, if you ever need me, I'll be there."

I nodded and I don't know but I just want to hug him. For everything. For tonight and for being my friend.

I hugged him and he stilled for a second before relaxing and put his arms around me.