Cruel Intentions

Chapter 14: Becca's dream

We reached the campus and Matthew parked in the usual place he did. I stepped out the car and closed the door. He got out and leaned on his car. We were going to separate from each other for some while now until tomorrow. He's really the only person I seen this weekend and I'm surprised I haven't got tired of his presence.

''So..this is finally our separation.'' He said smiling.

''Yeah I guess you can say that. But to be honest I never wanted the weekend to end it was fun being around you and all.'' I said with a smile.

''I had fun too but we'll see each other tomorrow so yeah. I know you'll do great on the speech.'' He said.

''Don't let me get all the credit, you wrote it. I think I can officially overcome my shyness to an audience.'' I said giggling.

''Good. Well, the dinner party is two weeks from now just to let you know. Text me and call me anytime you need to.'' He said approaching me.

''Okay thanks.'' I said smiling. I gave him a close hug which lasted a long time and gave him a peck on the cheek.

''See ya tomorrow Matt.'' I said patting his head. He waved good bye and I made my way upstairs to the dorm rooms. I know you guys think we're corny but what can I say we had a really long weekend. I walked past a few doors until I get to mine. I took out the key of my pocket and unlocked the door. I set my bag on the table and closed the door.

''I have the whole room to myself.'' I said to myself.

I slipped out of my clothes and slipped on something more comfortable. I took my phone out of my bag and put it on the charger. I kneeled down and looked under my bed and pulled out a shoe box which had hearts all over it. I slowly opened it up and there lay Sebastian's journal, his sunglasses and pictures of us. 

I began to recite the letter written to me warning her to stay away from Sebastian.

''Even more treacherous than he is attractive, he has never uttered a single word without some dishonorable intention. Every woman he has successfully pursued has regretted it. Stay away from him.'' Those words were the words I told Sebastian went he tried to sauce me up, so he knew that i wasn't easy to get through with his sweet sensitive words.

 Sebastian wanted to tell him who wrote me that letter about him but I told him I would never say who so he had to find out through some connections his friend Blain Thomas..

Memory....

''Now, just think for a minute. This girl... Rebecca Smith, she said someone wrote her a letter explaining all about you. Where did you say she was from?'' Blain asked curiously.

''Kansas. Who the hell do I know in Kansas?'' Sebastian said.

''Greg McConnell.'' He said.

''The football stud?'' Sebastian asked.

''Mm hm. He's from Kansas City. I wouldn't be surprised if he..was your rat.'' Blain said.

''It would make sense... McConnell hates me. I seduced his girlfriend at Homecoming last year.'' He said shrugging his shoulders.

''I... don't think that bothered him so much.'' Blain said moving his eyes to the side.

''What do you mean?'' Sebastian asked..

''Well, let's just say that Greg likes to tackle the tight ends both on AND off the field.'' He said..

''Oh, are you shitting me?'' Sebastian said shockly.

'' I shit you not. He used to sneak into my dorm room, drunk, every month. We'd go at it for a little while, and then as soon as he'd come, he'd start freaking out: "Oh, what are you doing, man? I'm not a gay! If you tell anybody I'm gonna kick your ass!" Gah. The only reason I let him keep up this charade is cause the man's got a mouth like a Hoover. Ooof!'' Blain said fanning himself with his hand.

Back to reality..

I snapped out of my thoughts and carefully opened his journal, I began flipping through the pages that were about me and Cecile till I stopped on the page on Vivian. He had her picture on the it, with those premiscious eyes of hers. He had a clear drawing her cocaine cross and more. I never knew a sister can be so cruel..well I guess that's why his jornal is titled...Cruel Intentions. I closed the journal and placed it inside the shoe box and I closed it with the lid. I kneeled down and placed it under the bed.

I laid on my bed and covered myself with the huge comforter of mine. I looked up at the ceiling with a clear mind because I didn't have the energy to think anymore. My brain hurt because of over thinking things. I closed my eyes and began to drift off into a deep sleep...

Becca's Dream...

I opened my eyes and found myself on the bed of Sebastian's old room. I looked around everything looked the same as it did last summer, I could hear the clock ticking above me....

''I've been waiting for you..Becca.''

I turned my attention to find Sebastian standing right in front of the door smiling at me.

''What?''

''You see Becca, I live in your mind. So everytime you think, you think of me and last summer. It may be some sweet and tender memories but deep down it hurts you because I was your love and i was taken away from you too soon, but like you said I'm your guardian angel...

''I don't understand...''

He placed his finger over my lips...

''You don't need to understand anything..you have to lock all those memories away. You have to give yourself a chance to be happy with or without me. I'm just a spirit now..I can't be with physically you but I can mentally. But our fond memories will cherish I promise..''

He leaned and kissed my lips softly. That moment..it felt like he was there with me physically but he wasn't and that killed me...

''I'll always love you no matter what..Becca. I'll always be in your dreams if I can okay?''

I nodded my head and before my eyes Sebastian's touch disappered. It was just me in the room, the clock ticking before me stopped. I closed my eyes tightly..

I woke up breathing uncontrollably. I wiped the sweat off my forhead with the back of my hand. I looked around the dorm room..I was back in reality. I moved the comforter off my body and sat up on my bed. I buried my face in my hands...Was this for real?

I got up and walked to the bathroom and stared at myself in the mirror. I looked peaceful and calm, I splashed some water on my face and began to think..Sebastian really wants me to be happy?...

''We need to fix ourselves first before we fix others. Caring for yourself is not an act of self indulgence, it's an act of self respect. The day will finally come when you have to accept that you need to be your own caretaker. There will be times when you'll have to work hard to mother yourself with compassion and patience that any messed up kid would need. Doing so will prove to be a great challenge, but a happier life is your reward..''

Author's note

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I hope you guys love this chapter, I already did 2 chapters in one day and I might do another let's see how I feel! Please comment and vote! :)

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