Cruel Intentions

Chapter 42: Revenge?

Becca POV

I'm just in my dorm room, crying my eyes out as the argument and the pictures replay in my head completely. My relationship and well being are falling apart. I love him so much it hurts. If only he knew how I feel right now. I didn't want to believe that he was with her...Gabriella. I knew she would want to do something like this. After what happened between me and her boyfriend, she probably was seeking revenge by sleeping with Matthew. I don't know how to show my emotions right at this second. I feel mad, sad and just plain hurt. Half of me wants to rip Gabriella's head off and the other side wants Matthew with me...

I'm interrupted when Sasha comes through the door, my face buried in between my knees. I hear the door close slowly and look up at her, tears falling down my face. She walked towards me and sat on the bed, wrapping her arms around me. We are just there in silence as I whimpered and sniffled. I cried onto her chest, the more I cried she held me tighter. ''No boy is worth your tears...'' She said softly. I looked up at her and wiped my tears.

''He hurt me bad Sasha, I can't explain how I feel right now.'' I said shaking my head. I never felt this way before. I've cried this much before when Sebastian passed away and left me alone. I feel like this experience reminds me back to the day where I just wanted die so i could be with him again. But if it wasn't for my parents, I wouldn't have been here. ''I know how you feel.'' She said as I laid my head on her chest. I just looked at the ceiling with a blank expression. I clenched up my fists as I thought about Gabriella. I needed to do something to release my pain.I sat up on my bed and ran my hand through my hair.

''I'm gonna go for a walk...alone..'' I said softly looking at her. She nodded and sat up on the bed. I stood up and began looking through my closet for my hoodie. I put on my black hoodie and slipped on my shoes. I walked over to the mirror and pulled my hair into a ponytail. I took a deep breath and looked at Sasha for a moment. I walked over to the bathroom and splashed some water on my face. I don't know what was coming over my body, but I felt funny inside.

I touched the door knob and looked at Sasha. ''I'll be back soon.'' I said opening the door and closing it behind me. I made my way downstairs and  to the front of the school. I opened the gate door and went onto the sidewalk. I walked to the nearest bus stop and sat on the bus bench. I knew where I was going,my blood was boiling at the thought about what was soon to unfold before me.

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The bus stopped and I exited as soon as possible. The bus drove away and I looked around the street and began crossing the street to the NY State entrance. I walked towards the guard in front. He looked at me and took out a visitors slip. ''Who are you here for?'' He asked looking at me.

''I'm here for Gabriella Lucas. I'm her sister.'' I said politely with a smile. 

''Oh Gabriella she's a nice girl.'' He said with a smile as he began writing the information down. I looked around the campus, there was only a few cameras but no too many. He gave me the pass and opened the gate for me. I walked in and looked around the campus. I looked down at the visitors slip. The Clark Building, dorm 11. I began walking and looked around until I spotted the building.

I opened the door and looked around. I began passing dorm doors until I found dorm 11. I stuffed the slip in my pocket. I looked at the door and exhaled deeply. I knocked on the door and waited for reply. A red hair girl opened the door and looked at me. ''Can I help you?'' She asked while looking at me up and down. ''I'm looking for Gabriella.'' I said. She scoffed and crossed her arms againist her chest. ''She's not here, she's at her friends house.'' She said.

I should of known, I came all the way here for nothing. ''Do you know where her friends house is?'' I asked.

She nodded and pursed her lips. ''Its a few blocks from here, one of the biggest house around the neighborhood. Its painted like a light pink color. I think its on 133rd street, you'll  notice it.'' She said.