Fears To Face

∞ Chapter 67 ∞

Kayley

I was falling apart. First, I had missed Rayne awfully and I wished I could see him constantly, but now every day I spent away from him was complete agony. This time it was even worse than the last time we were apart for so long, because we both knew we wanted to be with each other, we both craved for the touch of each other, to see that we were okay, but my parents wouldn't let us. I was exhausted missing him.

On the couch once again, I rested my head against the back. It fell over the edge as I followed my mom with my eyes. "Mom, please. It's been four days. The turn is tonight, let me please see Rayne. I can't do this anymore."

She dragged her feet to the couch and fell down, clearly feeling horrible already. The breath she released sounded worn out as she closed her eyes. "Kayley, we talked about this."

Talking would include actually listening to each others arguments, and she definitely hadn't listened to anything I had said. "But mom. I have done everything you said. I stayed in the house, let you me pick up from school and made all my homework. I have even been nice to dad because you asked me to. Please. I really need to see him."

Rising her hand to her head for a second, she sighed, then opened her eyes. "Fine. I don't know how I'm going to explain this to your father, but go."

I felt like jumping into her arms, but knowing it would hurt, I just flashed my teeth into view and sat up straight. "Oh god, mom I love you. Seriously, you have no idea."

A tiny smile played on her lips. "Oh, I think I do. But there will be no discussion," she added sternly. "When I get there, you will go home with your father."

Already on my feet, I could barely keep from jumping up and down. If felt like my heart finally wanted to beat again in joy, instead of hurting every beat. "Yes, no negotiation. I get it. Can I go now?"

Mom chuckled softly. "Yes. But Kayley? Be careful, please."

"I will. Thanks mom. Really. Thank you so much." I grabbed my coat from the hook in the hallway and was in my car within thirty seconds. The drive seemed to take forever, but I held on to where I was driving to. As the rush of sudden happiness passed, my heart hurt even more than before. Knowing I was only minutes away of hugging him made my body ache for him that much more. My whole body hurt from the constant tension it had been in ever since he jumped out of that hospital window. I came to a sudden stop in his driveway and shot out of my car. Before I had shut the door, Rayne's front door swung open. The sight of him made my chest swell with need, desperation and love. I locked the car in a haze, only seeing him. Then I ran.

We met halfway his driveway, flying into each other's arms. I buried my face in his neck, savouring his scent as tears filled my eyes, engulfed by his warmth. Home. My chest pounded with pain from my crushed ribs and my wrist protested as it gripped his shirt tight, but I didn't care. Only after I heard him flinch under his breath and force his breath through his nose, I realized it was the last day of the cycle and he would turn tonight. "Oh god, I'm sorry. How bad am I hurting you?" I breathed as I loosened my grip, but Rayne's arms tightened.

"I don't care that it hurts. I need to hold you." His voice was low, clearly pained, but I had trouble figuring out whether it was the pain of the upcoming turn or something else altogether. I couldn't agree more, though, so I tightened my arms again.

We stood there for a long time, just hugging each other tight. Rayne's face rested on my hair as he inhaled deep. Then he pulled away a bit, exhaled and said, "Let's go inside." He didn't let go of me on our way in. His energy was clearly affected, because he immediately headed for the couch once we were inside.