Alec Lightwood You Have My Heart

Chapter 12

Madelaine's POV
I woke up with my head on something that feels likes rocks but at the same time soft and comfortable. Does that make sense?

I don't know how to describe it but I open one eye to see its Alec's chest. I smile being wrapped into his arms.

Then I think about yesterday and for some reason I feel like crying. I quickly untangle myself from Alec's comforting arms and run to my room.

Alec, Izzy, Jace or Clary are not awake so I change into a sports bra and some black leggings.

Soon i make it to the training room and spot Hodge."Hey want to train together?"he asks but I shake my head

"No thank you Hodge I kind of want some time to myself."I say looking down so he doesn't see all the emotions brewing in my eyes.

"I'm going to leave the room so you can be by yourself I hope whatever is bothering you goes away."He says with a small smile and walks out.

I immediately go to a punching bag. Without gloves or any type of protection I start hitting it as hard as I could

Memories of yesterday flooding my mind. Jace doesn't even care about me any more. Alec got hurt because of me. Izzy could have gotten hurt.

I slam my fist as hard as I can as I feel tears in my eyes. I don't like crying but I am losing the only family I have left and I let the love of my life get hurt because of me. I'm such a screw up.

I continue punching the bag. My knuckles are bleeding but I don't care I continue ignoring the pain. Soon a tear slips out. Then another. Then another until tears are freely coming out of my eyes like a river.

"Madelaine stop!"I hear a voice but I don't stop I continue punching and punching

Soon i feel two hands grab mines preventing me from punching the bag any further.

I look up to see Isabelle. "What's wrong? Why are you crying?"She asks in the process of dragging me to her room.

I tug at her hand half way in the hallway making her stop. "Izzy let me go back." I say cursing myself for sounding so weak

"No we are talking I know something is up."She says and before she can say anything else a door is opened.

"Madelaine?"Alec says with a groggy voice rubbing his eyes. As soon as he takes in my whole appearance a worried expression makes its way to his face.

"What's wrong?" He says taking a step close to me but I take a step back. I ignore the pain in my heart when I see his hurt expression.

"I have to go with Izzy Alec" I say and Izzy takes me to her room. "Your even ignoring Alec what the hell is up with you?"Izzy says immediately after we enter her room.

That's when I fully break down. I slide down her door sobbing. "Oh god Izzy I'm such a screw up!" I say and she is quick to bring me into a comforting hug.

"Why do you say that?" Izzy says. I look at her like she is crazy.

"Izzy Jace doesn't even like to be around me anymore. Alec got hurt yesterday because of me and you could have gotten hurt too!"I say hugging her back tightly.

"Madelaine Jace loves you and what happened to Alec wasn't your fault. Also nothing happened to me and even if something did it wouldn't be your fault." she says

"Thanks Iz"I say and she opens her mouth to speak but is cut off by a knock on the door.

"Madelaine!I know your in there open up!Isabelle!Madelaine! Please"i hear Alec's frantic voice say.