Alec Lightwood You Have My Heart

Chapter 31

Izzy's POV
Its been a couple of days since we brought Madelaine to Magnus. He was quick to help us thankfully

He told us that her wounds were healed but she lost so much blood and suffered a concussion that he didn't know when or if she was going to wake up

I feel empty without her. I feel like ever since Clary got here all Madelaine has gone through is suffering.

She gets hurt and she lost her brother basically. I sigh and walk into one of Magnus's spare room and find Alec looking at his phone

He was looking at picture of him and Madelaine. She was looking at the camera with a goofy face and Alec was just looking at her smiling with adoration in his eyes.

He hasn't smiled these past few days. None of us have. He looks at me and turns off his phone

"What's up Iz?!" He asks softly and I sigh sitting next to him. "Don't try to act strong I know your hurting." I say and he turns to me

"I should be telling you that." he whispers and I sigh hearing footsteps in the next room

"How's Jace?" I ask softly. I might be mad at him since this is practically his fault but he is my brother so this hopefully won't last long

"I can feel him hurting and I heard him sobbing last night." Alec says glancing at the wall separating us from Jace.

I sigh laying down on the bed and Alec stands up. "I am going to check up on Madelaine i will be back soon." he says and I simply nod staring at the ceiling letting my thoughts consume me.
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Alec's POV
As I make my way to Madelaine I feel my palms get sweaty and my heart beat begin to accelerate

I hate her being in this position. I enter the room and take a seat next to her grabbing her hand

"Hey Mads. Its been a couple days now and you still haven't woken up." I speak my voice cracking

"I had a dream about you last night. I don't remember it clearly but all I can think about was how green your eyes were " I say thinking back to last night

"Do you remember that time when you decided to climb a tree and I told you it was a bad idea but you did it Anyways and you ended up falling in my arms looking at me with an emotion I wasn't sure what it was at that time

Flashback
"Alec please it will be fun!" Madelaine was giggling and I sigh as she begins to climb a tall tree.

I had a feeling it was bad but since it made her happy I guess its fine. I snap out of it as I hear her giggling again

"Alec look! I'm the queen!" she says laughing standing up and throwing her hands in the air as she stands on a branch

"Madelaine look out!" I say as I see her lose her footing. I quickly run towards her and just as she was this close to falling straight on the floor I catched her in my arms

She has her eyes closed tightly and she slowly opens them revealing her bright green eyes

She looks at me with an emotion in her eyes

I'm not sure what it is but she soon wraps her arms around me neck hugging me while I still hold her in my arms.

"Thanks Lightwood" she whispers and I smile holding her closer

End of flashback

"I didn't know it then but it was love in your eyes and I'm sure I was looking at you the same way." I say tears in my eyes

"I love you Madelaine please I'm begging you just wake up. I promise I will give you piggy back rides anywhere you want whenever you want because I know you like that. I'll get you ice cream too since that's your favorite desert. I will cuddle you when you need someone. I'll do anything just please." I cry out

I know this is showing weakness but I don't care

Madelaine is my weakness and my strength

She is my everything.

"Just wake up soon love I will check on you tomorrow" I say kissing her forehead then wiping my tears and making my way back to the room

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Jace's POV
I thought we had a little time to save her. I knew Clary couldn't defend herself since she's new at the whole shadowhunter thing

I thought Madelaine could hold them off for a while and then i could take the circle members down and she would be safe

I felt so bad at yelling at her and now look. Those could be the last words I ever said to her.

Its been days and she hasn't shown any signs of improvement

If I had known I would have chose been I would have chose her a million times

I thought I was doing the right thing but I ended up killing my sister basically

I punch the mirror full force that I was standing in front of

I couldn't stand looking at myself. I was disgusted

I felt the pain in my hand but I ignored it watching the glasses stick out my skin and the blood beginning to pour out

I let tears roll down my face like I was crying a river. If only I could have saved her sooner.

I punch the already cracked mirror again and this time it shatters completely to the floor as I yell in fusturation and sink to the floor sobbing

I hear the door open and frantic footsteps come to me.

I look up to see Isabelle. "Jace don't do this to yourself its not what she would want" Izzy says

I shake my head negatively at this statement "No she doesn't even consider me a brother" I say and Izzy stays quiet pulling out the glass from hand before wrapping a bandage around it

"Why did you choose Clary?" Izzy says and I look at her

"I knew she couldn't defend herself and I-I thought Madelaine could. I guess I chose wrong if I could go back I would choose her." I whisper crying again

"I have to go check up on Alec. I think you should stop blaming yourself." Izzy says before walking out

I'm left staring in shock at the door before deicing to stand up and going to Madelaine's room

She looks pale. That's the first thought running through my head.

I sit down next to her grabbing her hand.

"Hey Mads. Look, I know you don't have to and don't want to forgive me for what I did. I swear I didn't choose her over you. I knew she couldn't defend herself and you could. Your one of the best fighters I have ever seen. I have always pushed you so you can be better. I love you Mads. I don't want you to hate me but if that's what it takes for you to wake up then so be it. Wake up!" I say before going around to the couch in the room and laying down

Slowly I close my eyes and drift off to sleep dreaming about Madelaine being ok.

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Sorry for the crappy chapter