on this day.

i struggle to realize how my first morning without you will be so painful.

xxxix. I STRUGGLE TO REALIZE HOW MY FIRST MORNING
WITHOUT YOU WILL BE SO PAINFUL.

and i know you want to leave
by the look in your eyes
when i call your name
and a knot creates itself
in the back of your throat
that you try your hardest to pull out
with your own voice
but struggle to find the right words
when you truly know
the euphoria has finally
spilled between your fingers
and you were too blind to notice
up until this morning,

but i beg of you
please don't go today
maybe tomorrow
i'll be a bit stronger
but just for today
hold me a bit tighter
don't tell me you love me
but comb your fingers through my hair
and let your laughter bounce off
the walls surrounding us
so when you are finally gone
i won't be able to forget
what my once favorite thing to
hear in the morning
sounded like
and your warmth that once
sung me to sleep
lingers just a little
while longer.