on this day.

make belief sounds intriguing.

xiv. MAKE BELIEF SOUNDS INTRIGUING.

i'm left tied, wondering if life is easier when you have faith on your side because then you could blame all the things that turn sour on God. like spilling your bowl of cereal you made this morning, shouting out the lord's name in vain even when he had no control over how clumsy you can be. or how, on the way out of the kitchen, your toe decided to throw itself into the table, barely catching yourself as you scream why with your head thrown up to the sky. when your car was in reverse instead of drive and you rammed into the motorcycle parked behind you, failing a test you barely studied for, watching your father walk out on you for the second time, for some reason, it hurts more than the first. washing all the promises you once made to her down the drain, making a joke out of it by awkwardly chuckling; well only if He gave me more time, i'd be able to keep them. sitting at the same kitchen table, waiting for the school bus to arrive while listening to your mother's cries in the room next to you. trying to block out her hateful words to the one Man she continued to believe in.

i guess then, with God sitting still on both your shoulders,
this surely all wouldn't be my fault.