on this day.

don't make the same mistake.

lxi. DON'T MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE.

stare into the headlights 

as the car reaches you 
don't forget how they burned your eyes
and the way your heart dropped in the
mess of knots your stomach had created.

feel the breeze of the traffic near you
apologize for the damage you're about to do
move your arms up
expand your chest until it hurts to breathe.

reread the suicide note that you had left behind 
reverse and undo it 
dig deep into the spaces between your words
did you really mean it?

regret everything
as life and death collide
watch from afar as the accident repeats itself 
a stab at your ribs every time.

and cry for all you have loss
but throw no pity 
for what is done.