on this day.

weighed down with your fists as the ocean's waves.

xcvi. WEIGHED DOWN WITH YOUR FISTS AS THE OCEAN'S WAVES.

sailboat's leaking, continue to fill the bucket with water that overflows, boil when you realize we are sinking faster than you can save us. blame it on the sky, how it rained a couple days ago, curse out god for all he's done. talk about how we'll work it out, swim till we find shore. forget about the jellyfish awaiting to sting, the sharks that dance along the bottom of the darkness below us. don't listen to me when i say i don't want to be saved, i just want to go home. try to tell me you are my home as you cross your arms over your chest and stand still, hip deep into murky water. panic when the ice cold liquid barely holds your chin up, feel your heart beat raise violently as you swear you felt something touch your feet. watch from afar as a big wave crashes over you and me, only i resurface.

relieved when you don't.

yanked at my ankles, inhale the water around me. feel the bubbles burst rapidly in my lungs, my bones lighting on fire as i try to choke above sea level. look below me, see you pulling me down with you. blackout, die together in the ocean that melts away love turned sour.

become my anchor when all i wanted was to be set free.