on this day.

a ghost story.

lxxvi. A GHOST STORY.

ghost, you annoy me in the worst of ways

i want you to go, stop lingering in these empty walls
it only hurts more when you sing
your voice echoing
sounding just like him.

ghost, don't you understand
when you sit at the end of my bed
it only brings more pain
don't touch me
just leave me be
i want rest
and i don't want to talk to you anymore
please, leave.

ghost, finally
you have listened to me
left me for the better
i ate breakfast this morning
bathed in rose petals and liquid gold
i can see better days
without the anchor of you
at my feet.

ghost, it's only been days
but my bones are beginning to ache
my heart, shrinking for the worse
i don't know what to do
to make myself feel like i once did
like when i awoke
to you gone
but i'm beginning to miss your voice
and the company you brought on days like this
where the walls feel empty
without your existence.

ghost, all i did was fail today
and came back
to you not here
my knees gave out
and i cried for all that is lost
i looked for you everywhere
but tonight i'm left alone
appear tomorrow
and i'll never let you go
again.

ghost, you haven't returned
they tell me it's for the better
that i've finally moved on
but they don't live in the house we built
they didn't live through the mornings of waking up to you
only to find you gone the next
the yearning
my heart, she cries herself to sleep every night
if you don't come back
if i don't get through
tell me
what am i without you?