life goes on (completed)

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Pam's POV

I took a deep breath as I looked through the box of pictures of Fergal and I. It broke my heart to not have him around anymore. I did still really love him. But...I had to choose my kids over him.

But maybe I could still go to Orlando to get something out of him.

I walked out my bedroom and into the living room to see Becky watching TV and giving Jaden a bottle.

"Hey Becks? Would you mind watching the kids while I take a small trip to Orlando? I need to check on Fergal. It wouldn't feel right if I didn't."

"Are you sure that's a good idea? I mean, you are almost 8 months pregnant."

Becky said.

"I'll be fine. I've just gotta see how he's doing."

I said as I sighed. Orlando, here I come.

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I took a deep breath as I approached Fergal's door. I knew if I just knocked that he wouldn't let me in. So I opened the door right open.

I was met with beer cans everywhere. I knew that he started drinking again. But the next thing I saw shocked me.

He was shooting up.

"Fergal, stop!"

I screamed as I bent down in front of him, grabbed the needle, and threw it across the room.

"You dumb bitch! That cost me $20! How could you fucking do that you psycho bitch!"

Fergal yelled in my face.

"Fergal, why are you doing-"

Before I could even finish my sentence, Fergal grabbed me by the hair and smashed my face into the wall.

"Stop! Stop! I'm sorry."

I sobbed as I crawled into the corner.

"Oh you're gonna be sorry."

Fergal snapped at me as he walked out of the room. That's when he returned with the needle. Before he could come anywhere near me with it, I kicked his shin; making him fall onto the floor. I threw the needle out the open window and got on top of him.

"Why are you doing this?"

I asked him as I held his wrists down.

"I have nothing else left to live for. You left. CPS took the kids from me. Becky took the kids from me. And...I touched Skye and Julianna. I can't forgive myself for that."

Fergal said.

"Oh Fergie."

I said as I softened my grip. But that's when he flipped me over onto my back and sat on stomach.

"Ow! Fergal Get off of me! Please! You're gonna hurt my baby."

I sobbed in pain. I felt like he was sitting on all of my organs at once.

"No you dumb bitch. You should've never came back. Now you've ruined the drugs that I had left."

Fergal spat in my face.

"Now you're done."

Fergal said as he started choking me. Then everything just went black.